[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Aw, you just ruined my dream of having a Blackberry and it being awesome. Poo on you dream ruiner. lol Okay...why do all these fancy phones they come out with secretly suck really hard?

:D I don't know why, but I've been injecting...interjecting...injuicing? 'fucking' in a lot of words.

So I guess there's at least one pro to always being alone when I watch movies. No one to ruin it by yap-yap-yapping.

I haven't taken a single picture since Nick stole my fucking camera. Except once I accidentally took a picture of my nose with my phone, but that doesn't really count.

lol I said a whole lot of friggin stupid retauded shit. But no, hell no, fucking no I would not eat chocolate covered peas. But chocolate covered peanuts are good, so there's that.

That is gay. I don't even listen to the radio anymore. It's always cds or ProjectPlaylist at home.

The new edition???? I'm so jealous!! I want to see that movie so hard!

Yeah, goram is the curse word from the old show 'Firefly' and that movie 'Serenity.' I say it all the time. I have no problem with needing to see a shrink, it's just that the last three didn't help me at all, so I want to make sure I find a good one. You shouldn't bottle things. That's what I do, and it's not working for me. Yeah, it does suck. But there is no perfect job. I think I could handle all the shit at work if I wasn't so messed up already.

Wow they're all gone! It's like a fresh start, a clean plate. Er...clean slate, right? lol Plate.

God, I don't know how we managed to function in everyday life let alone graduate. At least we're less stupid now. You less than me. I still get those times when I stop and realize how stupid my thoughts or words are, and I think, 'God, will I ever not be a dumb-dumb?'

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Haha well would you rather get it and it mess up on you and then you have spent all that money for a piece of shit, or have someone tell you before you spend all that money? I don't know. So far, my new phone has been really good, but its so simple, which might be why.

...huh?

lol Yeah, that too. But don't worry, I have to watch a lot of movies alone too. Hector is either at work or sleeping. So either way, I'm by myself.

Haha wow. I take pictures of the dogs sometimes. Hector got me a new camera, so I feel bad if I don't use it at least a little. But I don't think I've taken a pic of myself in a long time.

lol Chocolate is always good, but that doesn't mean that putting it on something else is always good.

Yeah. Well Hector listens to it all the time cause he's always driving around on base, so he comes home telling me about this song or whatever that we'll donwload. When I go out on the rare occasion, I just listen to the preset stations that Hector put up cause I'm too lazy to search through everything.

Yup yup! haha You want it see it so hard??

Wow, nice curse word. I don't either, but the one I saw did all the talking, so I never got to actually say what was going on. So now I'd rather just talk to myself or someone else, but I don't usually have someone else to talk to cause I either just met them, or all the people I already know are busy, or its at a weird time, or something.

Clean plate, clean slate, whatever. It all means the same! lol

lol Ohh, I've had my moments. Especially with Hector. I've said a lot of stupid things the past couple of months, I just never remember them. lol

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Ok, question. Do you want me to keep deleting everything we say? Like, just leave the last ones that we've put up, or whatever? I can't think of how to ask that question. I'm sick, so my head is all...blah!

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: So you comment the stupid moments page, or whatever its called, but not here? Wow, smooth!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Yeah, be practical like that. Of course I'd rather be warned first. Geez, why do you gotta go and use your common sense? :P

Huh huh?

Yeah.

Mmm now I want chocolate.

Yeah, I want to see that movie so HARD! I have no idea why I started saying that, but I did, so there it is.

Well, I pretty much have to see a doctor or I'm going to start completely losing it. I'm kind of falling apart. Er. As in, it's not like I was all that together before, but now I'm totally f'ed up.

You need to remember them!!

Nah, we can leave everything now. I'm going to be a lot more carefuler about using names.

Sorry! I just didn't know what to say, so I didn't say anything. This week - this month has sucked balls. Nasty balls.

You know how I told you I asked off of work the weekend after Thanksgiving? Yeah, my biznoss (bitch+boss) just ignored my request and didn't even tell me that I couldn't not work. So I found out I was working just the other day, and I already had tons of plans made. So now I have to change all my plans, and gorammit I needed time off!

AND...I've been sick for the past week and a half, but I've been going to work and working hard through it. Then Wednesday, I missed a class because I was sick, and left work a little early. I didn't work Thursday, then Friday I couldn't come back to work after my break, because I felt like shit. And then Saturday I felt like even shittier shit, so I called in, and my biznoss accused me of faking sick because I was scheduled to work a register. WTF, mate!? Now we have to have a "talk" which is just effed up timing because I needed to talk to her in a civil manner about how much of a cunt she is to me.

AANNDD...Saturday night, some asshole broke into our house while we were home.

God I wish I could get plastered. Like shitfaced, falling down, oblivion drunk.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: lol Cause I'm a very sensible person!

I don't know...I don't remember. I worked my first weekend on Friday, Saterday, and Sunday night. OMG! I'm so tired!

I just had some chocolate chip cookies! MMMMMMMMMM

Haha Wow, it sounds so funny, now I want to say that!

Really? Have you talked to your mom about it?

I know! I've been trying. I'll remember it sometimes, but then when I get on the computer, its like it all goes WOOSH! out of my brain!

Ok, good. Cause I'm eventually going to forget about deleting them. So I had to be sure.

Really? I don't doubt it. This week is going to suck nasty hairy balls cause I have to work Thanksgiving night. And! I don't get to come home for Christmas! SO GAY!!!!

That sucks! Are you still thinking about getting a different job? I can't complain a lot about my job cause I only work weekends, plus Thursday for this week. Then when Christmas is over and I start working at the center I'll work from Thursday to Saterday from 10-6.

For real??? OMG! I'm sick too! I've been sick for a little over a week. I have another uti and its killing me! I finally went to my doc to get a subscription for it, but on top of that, I totally know how you feel. This weekend though, because of my uti, I had to pee so often, but I couldn't cause we were so busy. And since I was working the register and taking pics, I couldn't leave. It was killing me! My boss is a bitch, but she's not that bad.

Wow, while you were home? What happened?

Really? Come see me! We have enough alcohol for you to do that!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Compared to me you're Thomas Paine. Wham! Historical joke! Get it? Cuz he wrote Common Sense!! LMAO Dood, I hope that was the guys name...

Do you think it's going to be a good job though? Hard but good pay so worth it?

MMM Chocolate chip cookies. My mom bought some, but they were chewy, and I was like, mom, you can't have chewy cccookies. They have to have crunch. And the chocolate should be gooey.

Yeah, last Friday I had a mini melt down. I saw on the schedule that I was working when I'd asked off, and I drove home literally screaming and I said cuss words I didn't think I knew. So I talked to my mom a lot, and she was worried because I've been feeling like doing something reckless, and she was worried. So we're making appointments soon.

I actually don't work Thanksgiving, but I'm still pissed that I work Black Friday.

The whole thing about getting a new job is that the economy is so fucking sucktastic that I'm afraid if I get fired or quit there won't be anywhere to go. I'm thinking seriously about transferring to Canyon, though. I'm actually going to that store with another girl from work to check it out and maybe talk to their manager.

Oh damn, that sucks. God I hate sicknesses. Like it sucks that people have to get sick. Someday in the future, no one will get sick anymore. Or if they do, we'll have nanobots that work as anti-ickysicknessgerms that'll wipe it out in a day.

Yeah, while I was home. I was in my room watching Life on Hulu and working on my term paper. I heard weird noises, and at first I thought it was the movie, then it happened at a quiet part, so I paused it and listened, heard another noise, and then Bishy barked twice really quietly, and I figured it was the dogs being dufuses. So I went out, and my mom asked me if I was just standing at her doorway, but I had just left my room. I was like, "ZOMG, are you serious? That wasn't me." So I turned on all these lights, and I got the porch light, and when I glanced out the front door I saw our garage door was open. So apparently, someone has a thing that will open our garage door, and they came in and were literally standing in my mom's doorway about thirty seconds before I left my room. We had to call the cops, and we were freaked out. Damn, it was insane.

Dood...cool...alcohol. Actually, I am going down to Fort Worth soon to see my dad, since I was supposed to see him this weekend but my biznoss won't let me. I wonder how far it would be to your place? lol

But seriously, I just cheered myself up by downloading a Banana Phone ringtone to my phone!!!!

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: HAHAHAHAHA You're funny! I don't know if that was the dudes name or not! HAHA But yeah, I get it!

Yeah, totally worth it. But I mean, I work a lot just for the weekends, so its really not that bad. And I mean, its just the weekend. Hector's going to try and do volunteer work out there so it won't be that bad.

I like chewy cookies. Some cookies are good with a little crunch, but I like them to be chewy.

Well that's good. Are you starting to get closer to your mom now?

Well, most jobs don't. But since this is a santa thing, its not all day, its just at night. So its really not that bad. And Hector is going to come out there so I'll still get to be with him. I don't mind not going home cause I wasn't there for Thanksgiving last year, but I'm sad I don't get to go home for Christmas.

Really? Well that's cool. Canyon could be funner anyways. It would be new too! But I know what you mean. The only reason I got a job here was because I'm a military wife.

I know, right? Its gay. Especially when you're up all night working and you feel like shit.

OMG! I would have been freaked out too! That's so crazy!

Its about...2 hours from here. I think, maybe a little more. But you should totally come for a little while!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: I feel like such a dork for making that joke...but it's only because I've been watching Liberty's Kids. Which still makes me a dork...but a dork with and excuse!

Well that sounds cool.

Some cookies are best chewy. Like oatmeal raisin! ZOMG Now I want some! It's weird, but the bestest ever oatmeal raisin cookies I've ever had are from the cafeteria at BSA hospice.

Well...I mean, sort of. We're both so temperamental that sometimes it gets bad, but we try to talk to each other now. And we watch House together Tuesday nights, so that's fun.

Does Hector not get time off for Christmas holiday?

Yeah, I mean I know that it would be LOADS less pressure, which means less Nazi-ish work environment, which means no more me pulling out my hair at the end of the night. It would suck that it takes 15 minutes to get there, thought, since it takes like 4 to get to the one I'm at now. I'd just have to get used to leaving earlier.

I know. And being really sick and being accused of faking it by your biznoss sucks hard too.

Yeah, it really was. I slept with my lights on that night! And a phone under my pillow, and a walking stick by my bed. It was pathetic.

Dude, I totally should!!!

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: HAHAHA Well, I guess its ok if you have an excuse.

HAHA Wow. I like chewy peanut butter cookies!!!! MMMMMM And white chocolate macadamia nut cookies!!!!! I had some of those for lunch, though I'll probably throw them up here in a little bit.

Well that's good. I actually miss my mom. I even told my dad I loved him the other day.

Hector does, but I don't. I work Christmas Eve, and for us to be able to go, he has to put in a form saying that he's going to Amarillo for leave or just a pass or something, but everyone wants to do that and if you don't do it at the right time, you won't be able to. So then we thought about coming in for New Years, but we might be able to then either. The military is stupid.

Yeah, well, sometimes leaving earlier to work in a better environment(I'm totally not all here right now, so I don't know if I spelled that right) is worth it.

I know. I think I'm getting worse. I started throwing up last night, and I threw up all the medicine my doc gave me for my uti. So here in like, 10 mins, Hector's going to take me back to my doctor so we can do something about it.

Ohh wow. Well me and Hector sleep with pocket knives on our windowseel...seal...seel? I don't know, and I don't care. I'm too loopy right now.

You totally should! When are you supposed to be coming down?

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: I always thing that people are being sarcastic when they type 'hahaha'.

Okay, chewy white chocolate macadamia nut cookies are good, but peanut butter cookies should be crunchy. lol Don't throw them up, cookies are always worse the second time around.

Wow. I saw your dad at Hastings. It was weird.

lol Yeah, I agree the military is totally stupid.

Why are you totally not all here right now? Or, right then, since now is later than that now.

I hope you get better!!!

lol Windowsill, I believe.

I don't know yet. First I have to talk to my biznoss.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: I saw Twilight today!

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Ohh, well LOL. Is that better?

I like the peanut butter cookies my mom makes where the outside has crunch, but the middle is a little soft. MMMMMM Now I want to go home to eat cookies! I know! Thank God I didn't!

Really? Did he say anything to you? Or, you him?

I hate the military. I mean, love some of the benefits, but hate the military itself.

Cause I'm taking 4 different pills from my doc, and one of them makes me kind of loopy.

Me too! Being sick is shitty!

lol Well, I had most of the word right.

Really?? Was it good? I hear lots of people talk about how "over rated" it is, and because of that it made the movie kind of sucky. I was waiting for it to die down here cause the movie theater is always crowded when a new movie comes out.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Yeah. It's just that I read 'hahaha' or 'hehehe' as sarcastic.

Mmm, okay those cookies sound good. I want a cookie :(

Yeah, he came up to me and said hello and asked me about school and told me he saw my mom. I said school was fine and that I knew he saw my mom. I didn't say anything else :P

Yeah, ditto, minus the benefits part.

Aw, sucky.

Okay, Twilight was...well it was like...there were parts where it was obvious they were omitting or condensing, but it's a long book in 2 hours so of course they had to. But there were tons of parts where the dialog, if not the actually action, matched exactly. And the James fight scene was a bit of a let down, but what can you do. But yeah I totally can't friggin wait until New Moon comes out, but then I kind of totally can friggin wait because New Moon was my second least favorite book in the series.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Ohh. I usually put it up when I actually go "hahaha" out loud.

Yeah. Well, I just got through with Thanksgiving lunch, so I'm most deffinetly not anxious for a cookie right now lol

Lol What an exciting conversation you two had. He didn't tell me he talked to you though.

Well, I haven't read the books, so maybe I should read the books before I see the movie. My friend here just got through reading the books, and said she loved them, and her roomate read the books, so maybe I should too.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Ooh. Well now I know!

Don't make me jealous. I haven't had a cookie or Thanksgiving food.

Yeah, well, your dad creeps me out, so...there wasn't much I had to say to him. I've actually seen him in there several times, but I always walk right past him pretending to look really busy. No offense to you, but well you know your dad.

GASP

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: We wouldn't have had Thanksgiving food if we hadn't gone to Golden Coral. Neither of us cooked for anything.

I do know my dad. Since I've been gone though, I think I almost miss him. I even almost miss J.P. I know, right?

Nope, not yet. BUT! I went to see it again tonight with Hector's parents and finally got to see the end! OMG! So awesome! I'm ready for the next! Now I REALLY want to read the books now though!

Ohh wow! You know, lol, I got on Neopets the other day! I don't even know why, I just did.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: lol Golden Corral, I used to friggin love that place. ZOMG, now I want some of the rolls and mashed tators they have. :(

Huh, so absence really does make the heart grow fonderer.

Yeah, if you don't read those books I'm going to drive down there, tie you to a chair, and force you to read them. MWAHAHAHAHAHaa...

lol Well, some of those games are fun. I think I would've done better on Typer Shark if our new keyboard wasn't so ... weird retauded.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: I had 2 of their rolls, and A LOT of their mashed tators! MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

I guess so. I was so upset when I found out I wasn't going to be able to go home for Thanksgiving. I almost wanted to cry.

Lol Well hey, if it lets me see a familiar face, I won't read them!

Lol Our keyboard, I've spilt so much dr. pepper on it, and it still works pretty good. Except our space key. Sometimes it feels weird when it goes down, but other than that its pretty good.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: lol Yeah, that's basically all I eat when we go there. I dip the rolls in the mashed tators, or make mashed tator sammiches.

I'm sorry :( But you're all growed up and married, and you chose to live with your hubby. But I'm glad things are better between you and your parents. So you know that the people you're missing are missing you too.

lol No! You have to read them! So I'll find another excuse to go down and force you to do something, just as long as you read them!

lol It works fine, but it feels retarded. I'm just so not used to the way it feels to type on it.

I'm so sleeepy. I stayed up all night. LOL Then I went to school, and in my first class we watched about half an hour of a movie, and after the teacher was lecturing, and I was taking notes, and I kept dozing off in the middle of writing a word, and I would wake up to find crazy squiggly "words" on my paper. It was really funny.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Lol Me too! I actually got some turkey and some stuffing though. I just wanted some cause it was Thanksgiving.

Yeah. Well I'm glad I'm here. I hate not seeing my family, but being here is a new experience that I'm glad I chose to go through.

Lol So what will be your other excuse?

Lol Wow. I'm a little drunk right now. For the first time ever! lol Earlier I was frustrated cause of the weekend, then Hector came home and he was like, keep doing it, make some jello shots. I haven't had those yet, I think I'm done though. I feel so dumb!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Well that's because we've been brainwashed into craving turkey and stuffing on Thanksgiving. And it's all yummy.

That's good.

My total lack of coordination/brains.

Wow. Just wow. Jello shots, srsly?

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO it isssssss yummmmmmmmmy. Though, Golden Corals stuffing could have been a little better, cause it wasn't the best I had, but it was still pretty good.

I guess since Hector's parents it wasn't that bad cause we still got to see family. My mom said she was going to try and come up next week for a few days, so I'm looking forward to that. But seeing any familiar face will make me happy.

Don't ask. Jello shots was Hector's idea. We haven't even had them yet cause he ended up freezing them. Hector hears lots of stories from the people he works with. EVERYONE here drinks. Even military wives, like the girl here I know. Its amazing.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: lol That seems a little too enthusiastic, but okay. I really usually just like Stove Top stuffing, but my brothers both made some pretty yummy stuff.

Yeah, I get that. I'm totally a home body. I like the familiar, the safe, the not-new. I want to move away some day, but I don't know if I could because I'd miss Yellow so much. Not that there's much to miss...lol.

Wow. I guess it's not too surprising that the military drives people to drink, if you think about it even a little. I don't drink. Never been drunk. There are days, though, that I swear to Bob I need a drink. In my psychology class (lmao I typed psychocolate first, can you guess what I'm craving?) I learned that some people can know their alcoholics before they ever drink. I just know that if I had access to alcohol, I'd go overboard.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: lol Yeah, well, I'm still looooopy. But that's cool, I like stuffing, most of the time. Depending on who makes it. I can't remember where, but there was one place that made the bomb stuffing.

I know, right? Everyone says there's not much to miss, but when you to somewhere like...here...you're just like, why didn't I take advantage of Yellow when I could? Ugh, cause here is so gay. There is nothing here to do! The mall even sucks worse than Yellow's does.

lol I can totally guess what you're craving. lol That actually made me laugh really hard. You know, its not really that we have access, I mean, we know people that can get it for us, but we don't get it that often. We got it a few weeks ago, and Hector really wanted to get drunk, and boy...did he. He actually threw up that night, and after that he was like, I'm going to take is slow from now on. But the other day, I don't know what came over me, I just grabbed one, and Hector suprised me and came home, and was like, ooo, now you gotta keep going. (Instead of going, I actually said dreaming and almost didn't realize it lol Can you tell what I'd rather be doing right now?)

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Dude, now I want more stuffing :(

Wow, because Yellow's mall is so cool...>.< I get so bored here, but still, I guess I love it. Hell, I can take the same street, at least partially, to get to work, school, and Wal-Mart. Woot!

Well, I mean now I have one person that could get it for me if I asked, not that I would ask, and not that I should. And I definitely don't want to ever be drunk. Puking is on my list of least favorite things ever. lol I can tell what you'd rather be doing right now! Wow, we're all for Freudian slips lately, huh.

Oh hey, you know Ryan, Brittany's cousin? He just started sort of dating this girl from work that I've become friends with. It's weird how small Yellow feels sometimes :P

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: lol I'm sorry.

HAHA I know, right? OMG, I know, right? Yellow can be a great place, way greater than here. Here, gah...stupid.

I know. I haven't drank so much that I've puked. I'm hoping that will never happen cause I hate puking. Eh, drinking isn't even that great either. It all tastes nasty! So why does everyone like it? Psh, I don't know. I guess...again...everyone likes to escape, so whatever. OMG, I know. But, I'm still super sick, so everything that's come out of my mouth, I've been like, Ohh gosh, what did I just say? lol This morning, my throat was so dry and sore that when I was talking to Hector, I sounded like the little boy from The Shining when he's saying, Redrum. It was funny. I even started saying redrum.

Wow, that's interesting. You know, when Hector's parents were here visiting, we were all talking about how small Yellow is. Even the world. Its all so crazy!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Wow, I thought I replied already.

I know you are, now apologize! lol I say stuff like that and "don't look at me in that tone of voice" at work, and they don't get it, and it makes me sad.

lmfao I just pictured you saying Redrum in that voice. Wow.

I mean, the world is frigging huge, just look at how vastly different Texas and ... Uganda are. Like different worlds. But still, sometimes it feels so small.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: You seem to think that a lot.

WHAT???????? How could they not get it???????? Stupid people.

Lol Yeah, it was crazy, but cool. It still kind of makes me laugh. But, I'm actually starting to get a little better.

I know, right? Its so crazy. We went over to Dallas for shopping, and we ran into some people we knew, it was crazy!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Yep! Because I'm a dumdum.

I know!!! I get blank stares, and I'm like...hello? It's not rocket surgery! And that just makes them more confused.

Finally! That's good.

Wow.

I registered for next semester, and I have to take three English classes because what I really need is foreign language, but the class I need is only offered in the fall :( Poopy puepty pants.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Lol you are, but its ok, I still love you.

Ohh wow. That's gay. Though, I'm sure if I said that to the few people I know here, they would do the same thing.

I know, I'm excited. Except my nose is still kind of stuffy.

Ohh wow. I need to register for next semester. Are you already done with finals for this semester?

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Yaaaay!!

Geez, why can't everyone we meet automatically understand our inside jokes????

Dude, you need to get all the way better!

Yeah, I finished my finals and now I have to wait to see my grades.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: I know! Seriously! Is it really that hard to understand something so simple?

I know. Fucking omg! My throat is swollen again! And I can't see my doctor til fucking January!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: I know! It's like, hey, I know I'm a dumdum, but even I get the simple crap.

You can't see your doctor till January? Your doctor sounds sucky. I don't have a doctor of my own. I usually go to this clinic where you don't need appointments. Surely there's one of those down there?

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: I don't feel so good. I think you passed your germs through the intertubes to me. Jerk. :P

Just kidding. I'm not sick. But I do feel like crap. I hurt something around my lower back or hip and it hurts like a mofo. I think I need to see a chiropractor.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Dude, lol, I've gotten so light-headed lately that I don't get the simple stuff. OMG. Hector asked me if he colored like Mozart? And I went, of course babe!

Well, since I have Tricare, the military insurance, I have to have a specific doctor for them to bill to cause me and Hector don't actually have to pay our doctors, or whatever, however that works, they just take $27 out of his paycheck every month. My doctor is sucky. I'm going to try and call them tomorrow and like, beg cause I'm getting really sick and can't wait til freaking Janurary.

lol Its ok, Hector's made me more sick than I was. So blame him! Dude, I messed up my toes at work cause I ran them into the stairs! It hurt like a biznitch!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Yeah, you've been sick for a while, that totally sucks :(

OUCH!

Dood, merry Xmas eve! I seriously can't believe that it's Christmas already. I mean, I remember last Christmas so vividly, that I can't believe a year has already passed.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: I know. Its amazing how fast its gone by. Just think, this year is gonna go by even faster!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Goram, don't say that!!! This year had fucking better be better than last year, or I'm going to go insane.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Okay, so I just stayed up all night, and as soon as my mom was awake I started cleaning my room. It took like ... *does mental math* ... *still doing mental math* ... almost five hours, but I finally got it pretty much perfect.

And I got a new desk! You know the crappy ugly one I had forever?? I bought a different kind of crappy, still ugly-ish, but much more matchier for my decor desk at a thrift store. Yay thriftyness! Now all I need is a bookshelf large enough to fit all my books and dvds, and I'll be set!

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: That's true. I really hope its better.

Wow, that's a long time.

Hey, for the sims, isn't there a dresser thing that you can go and get other clothes?

And that one thing that refreshes their bladder and stuff, I can't find it...still...

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Me too.

I know, but I organized friggin everything, making it uber perfect-ish. Another hour and it will be great, but I've gotten all the OCD out of my system and I really don't feel like cleaning anymore. Still looks pretty.

Yeah, it's a cherry wood dresser, and I think I got it at modthesims2.com. The inSIMinator is my favorite hack, it sort of does most of everything. Refreshes needs, you can buy clothes, do makeovers and facelifts, change age, make pregnant, all that jazz. I haven't been able to access the site that has that in a long time, and I don't know if it's gone forever or what, but I can email you a copy of the file I already downloaded, with some instructions and a guide for what goes where and what it does. I'll have to do that tomorrow though.

I missed work today. I've been sick since Sunday. On the one hand, I'm glad that I had another free day, because I got some good writing done, but I'm going to be sad my next paycheck :(

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: OCD? Ohh, nevermind, I GET IT! lol

Ok, that would be totally great. Cause I'm getting tired of constantly having to feed them and making them go pee and all that stuff.

Yeah, dood, I'm still sick. Its not as bad as it was, but holy shit. I do have a doctors appointment tomorrow though. So hopefully we can get this taken care of!

OMFG! Ok, so I told you about the Santa's Helper job right? I was supposed to start working with the boss lady in charge of that on post, I think I told you about that one too. Anyways, I was supposed to start that job Tuesday. I couldn't remember what time she told me to be there, so I called Tuesday morning early, and then she was like, Ohh, I don't want you to come work for me. I spent like, 2 weeks thinking that I was going to have a job to go back to (because the army took a whole break from Christmas to New Years), when she could have told me while I was still working out at the santa thing, and she just let me...omg, I was so pissed. So now I'm looking for another job. I'm so mad, but the job I'm trying to get right now pays better, so I'm hoping I get it.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Ok, so I've looked everywhere for the inSIMinator, and apparently it got its own site...that doesn't have it...nor anything else. I still haven't found it, so I would seriously appreciate it if you sent it to me! I'd like, love you for forever, not that I already wouldn't. I haven't been able to find the dresser either.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: lol Dumdum.

I know, I hate taking care of the sims! :P Is your email still the same??

Shit, that sucks.

Wow, that lady's a bitch. Good luck finding one. I need a new job. Fuck I hate the place I work at. And love it. But I hate it!!

Okay, I did a bit of digging - here is the link to download the InSim. I always use the OBJ version.

http://www.insimenator.org/index.php?PHPSESSID=7244003a2d384acd24dc8f81db97919c&topic=100226.0

And here is the link to a newer mod. Apparently, the InSim has become unsupported, so there will be no more updates or anything. This new one, the Sim Blender, does a lot of the stuff the InSim does, but I'm still sticking with the InSim, unless the Sim Blender expands to include more fun shit.

http://www.simbology.com/smf/index.php/topic,20.0.html

I found out who made the dresser, but these two other modders made it better. It's now a coat hook, but you get the clothes for FREE and shit, so yay.

http://www.modthesims2.com/download.php?t=225251

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Lol I know.

Yesh, wait, which one? You know, just e-mail me at mrmrslafuente@yahoo.com.

She was a bitch. I hated her. So it was ok with me that I wasn't going to work with her, I just hate that I have to find another job.

Sweet, thanks! Omg, I love you!!!

So then the coat hook is better, right?

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: :D

The ktnkat8. I'll add that other one to my address book, but since I gave you the links I really don't need to email you anyway :P

Yeah, it's not a good time to have to find a job.

lol You're welcome.

Yes, the coat hook is better. It lets you buy clothes for free, change clothes, and plan outfits. Of course, on the chair of the InSim OBJ version, there's a spawn function, and you can spawn a stack of clothes that do that too, except with the inSim you have to pay for the clothes.

ZOMG You know how we have tile in my house? Baby and Bishy are chasing each other around playing, and Baby was trying to run, but her feet kept slipping, so it was like a cartoon, she just kept running in place for a few seconds before she finally got it. LOL

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Yeah, i still have that one. Dood. I have problems when I download the stuff. i had to download extra stuff to download the stuff. AND, once I downloaded the stuff from the links, it wouldn't let me get on the sims.

I know, we went over the the place on post that military wives can go to to get a job, and there were so many people there.

Yeah. Have you tired the blender? Cause I'm thinking that one of those three might have messed up my thing, I'm just not sure which one. i can't even do anything on my actual desktop. I have to use my laptop to place the sims, which might be part of it.

HAHAHA omg, that's funny. Whenever we were home, Daisy and Brandy were running around everywhere, and omg, they couldn't do it either. They were slipping and tripping all over themeselves. It's so funny.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Dood, where does the coat hook go when you download it? Cause I think my blonde stupidity is kicking in cause I can never find it. But I also had to uninstall everything and now I'm reinstalling stuff little by ltitle to make sure it works.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: ...? Delete everything you downloaded, and I'll email you the files you need.

Yeah, apparently a lot of people had the same problem you had. This girl who used to work at Hastings, then quit, and now works there again said that her husband had this job, and they made it sound like he'd keep working there after Christmas, but then they said it was just a seasonal job.

No. I use InSim.

The coat hook should be in with all the dressers. You unzip/unrar and put everything into your EA Games/Sims 2/Downloads folder, right?

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Yeah. I couldn't get on Sims at all afterwords of everything.

Really? See, I knew that mine was a seasonal job, but the whole time I was working she kept telling me that she wanted me to come and work at the place on post with her. The whole month and a half that I was working there, she told me she wanted me and the other girl she hired to. But not once during that time, nor the 2 weeks after did she tell me she didn't want to. I had to call her. But whatever, I'm over it.

Yeah, but I had to download some...qexpress thing or whatever to do it, but now that wont work. So i installed everything and I'm going to leave it alone for a little while and try again later.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: That sucks. It should be fine once you get back to just the downloads you had before, and then the two files I'm sending shouldn't mess it up. Er...do you have the University EP??

Wow, bitchy. Oh well. That's the way this job thing goes sometimes.

I don't use qexpress. You should get rid of that too. When I download things, they're always in either .rar or .zip, and I download them all to one file, then after a while, I go to that file, select all the .rars and .zips, right click and select 'Extract Here.' Then I delete the .rars and .zips, and move the .package files left to the downloads folder. I used to have qexpress and clean installer, but honestly this is simpler.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: No, just uhh...nightlife and umm...celebration.

Yeah, its pretty stupid.

See, i tried doing that whenever I first got the sims, but none of it worked. So I went through to make sure I was doing it right, and I was. Then, they were like, if it didn't work, you gotta get this and this. So then it took me to this rar website, but that things stupid and doesn't work either. So then I looked more into it and there was the qexpress thing. And that was working up until I tried to use the insim and coat hook thing.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: I think the InSim UV will work for you. I don't remember if UV stands for University version or something else. Worth a try.

Yeah, I don't have RAR or winzip. Rar works when you open the actual compressed file, it just tells you every time that it's a free trial. It should work for you to right click 'extract here'.

Did you install the files I emailed to you?

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Ok, well I'll try it and see what happens.

See, I tried it first on my desktop that way, and it was like, saying that there was no such file, at all.

Yeah.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: When you download things, does the file look like a regular folder with a zipper on it?

The actual .package files that go in the downloads folder will show up as 'no file found' if you click on them.

This is hard. I'm trying to help, but without seeing the problem I don't know what to do except guess at what the problem is.

Have you tried the Help section at http://thesims2.ea.com/ ? Maybe there will be something there that would explain everything. Or the Game Help section at modthesims2.com

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Yeah. It does, and it does that too. But then when I put it in the downloads folder with the sims, it won't show up in the game.

I've tried the modthesims2.com Help, and that's what brought me to the qexpress.

But omg! I am so pissed right now. I'm so pissed that i want to cry, but can't. Hector's acting like he did in highschool, and when i brought it up, he went all anal. OMG! I could....ugh!!!!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Does any downloaded file not work in your game?

Yeah, qexpress was developed by people there. It never really worked for me. Are you sure you're downloading stuff for the right expansion packs? If you only have nightlife, some of the stuff might require additional EPs.

I'm sorry that its not working for you, and really sorry that Hector's being that way. Did you tell him that his behavior upset you? I spent all day today alphabetizing the relationship books, and for fun (and because I'm a total slacker) I read this one called 'Men, Love, and Sex' and it has questions asked by women with answers taken from a survey of hundreds of men. It had great tips, I might buy it. Or no, I'll just read it next time work is slow. Anyway, it had all these tips on preventing fights, which I thought would be great for me because I fought all the time with Nick, and clear communication with 'I' messages (as in 'I feel upset when you say shit like that' as opposed to 'You are a dick when you say shit like that') were rated as one of the best ways to clear up and prevent arguments. And Hector...he's difficult. But I admire your devotion to him. When I hear he's treating you poorly, I just wanna smack him into gentlemenhood. Huh. That's totally not a word. Gentlemanhood? Nope. Gentle manhood just sounds dirty. :P I got off track...

Just to clarify - you unzipped the InSim I emailed you, put the .package file in your Sims 2/Downloads folder, and when you started the game it wasn't there? In buy mode, sorted by function, electronics, and click on the sideways 8? Because when I first got it, I couldn't find it and didn't know why until I checked there.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Nope. Yeah, I make sure that its for the right expansion packs. I might try again here in a little bit.

Its ok. I'll get everything straight eventually. Is it really that good? Now I might have to read it. How many books are in the Twilight series?

Yeah, I unzipped, put it in downloads, and when I looked, nothing.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Okay. The game can be frustrating sometimes, with downloads not working and shit.

That book was totally interesting. You are asking about the guys and sex one, right? It was funny too. Okay, don't think I spend all my time at work reading books about sex, but this one came in today that was called 'The Guide to Getting it On' and it had a colorful fun cover so I totally read some of it...and wow. I went straight to the chapter called 'Surfing the Crimson Wave', because I totally am right now, and learned that apparently there are some sex acts I've never heard of. Period sex, for instance. Period blood is like a better lube than KY, it can sometimes be more pleasurable for the chick, and it eases pain. And, ew, some guys actually like giving oral sex to a chick while she's "ragging", blood and all. That was...interesting. I got off track again...

There are four books in the Twilight Saga: Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, and Breaking Dawn. I *hearts* me some Twilight. Hastings sells replicas of the Cullen crest jewelry from the movie, and I totally want Rosalie's necklace, but it's twenty friggin bucks, and I have like $5 in my checking account :(

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Yeah, well now I've got stuff working, EXCEPT hair. All the hair I've downloaded will not show up in the game at all, but everything else will.

Yes, that book. Haha its ok, I was looking at this thing online about sex positions. You know how yahoo has headlines that you can go to or whatever, there was one about top sexual positions to try with your partner. Most of them were kind of weird, there was one with like, a doggy style sort of thing, but...I don't know how to explain it. But they were positions I wouldn't want to try. Haha omg, wow. I can understand the whole pain part, because it does help take away pain, but dude, oral dex while ragging? I would never ask a guy to do that. That's so gross!

Yeah. See, I knew for sure there were 2, then I heard about the third one, but me and Hector were at Walmart and I saw the Breaking Dawn one, and I was like, WHAT? There's 4! Sweet!

Omg, ok, so Hector got his wisdom teeth taken out yesterday, and being a good person, I'm not making him do anything and we're just chilling at home watching at movies. We got some yesterday and watched them all day and took them back this morning and got more this morning. One of the movies we got was Mirrors. Holy shit, I didn't even want to finish the movie. Its not even that I got scared, it just freaked me out. I don't even want to look at a mirror now. Ohh, and we watched Snakes on a Plane today. Lets see...I watched Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2. It was good, and I rented Mama Mia, but I didn't really like it. I mean, it was ok, but not great. I made Hector let me get The Hills Have Eyes too. Had to see it! I can't think of any of the other movies we got.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Whoa, that's random. I wonder why?

Yeah, there are tons of position books at work and most of them are like...that doesn't even look fun. But yeah, you're right, that's totally gross. lol And the book kept saying over and over again not to have sex with a tampon in, and I was like, really, that's happened?? lol

lol Yeah, but four is totally not enough. I wanted those books to go forever.

Ooh! I want to see Mirrors! Dude, I think I have a speech impediment because I sound retarded when I say 'mirrors'. I hearts Snakes on a Plane!!! ZOMG So much! "Who's your daddy now, bitch?" I liked Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2. I loved Mama Mia. It was weird, but I guess when I watched it it was exactly the kind of movie that I needed because I loved it. I haven't seen the Hills Have Eyes in forever! I love that movie, but I'm going to wait for a while to see it again. Same with High Tension. I haven't seen it since that time I watched it with you, and I still need to wait to see it again until I forget how awesome it is so it can blow my mind again.

I saw the Other Boleyn Girl, finally! It WAS sad.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: I dont know. I've gotten one kind of hair to work. The rest will not work. But That's ok. The one hair I downloaded was pretty cool.

Haha woah, that would be a little weird. A tampon? Seriously?? LMAO that would be uncomfortable...

I know! Have you read the last one?

Dude, I couldn't finish it, and it was only because of that girl getting her face ripped or whatever that they show in the previews. OMG, THAT was nasty. OMG, we watched See No Evil the other night, and seriously, the end of it made me laugh lol. After we watched Snakes on a Plane I played the soundtrack and and Hector was like, wow Mizanne, seriously? We just heard those songs! I was all, so? They're friggin sweet! Yeah, that's the whole reason why I saw the Hills Have Eyes, just because I hadn't seen it in a while and for some reason, really wanted to. Yeah, I'll wait some time to watch High Tension too. I still remember it pretty well, kind of sad.

OMG, I know! Its so sad! Like seriously, I started to cry, actually, thinking about it, I don't really know why I cried. I was super sad when Jim Sturgess' character got killed at the end, and that's when I started crying. Weird, I know!

Holy shizz dood! I've been watching the Powerpuff Girls all day today. Or, well, while its been on. Hmm...I was gonna say something else too...can't remember what...damn!

OHHHHH we saw...what's it called...SHIT! My Bloody Valentine 3D, it was pretty good. Hector actually liked it, and he gets bored during scary movies. The 3Dness was pretty cool.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: The hair works now, but I can only get mts2 hair, it wont show up if its from somewhere else.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: That's totally weird, that only mts2 hairs work...I wish I could help, man. I haven't actually played the Sims 2 in a while. Usually I get on and find a house that needs to be decorated or ugly sims that need to be deuglified. Then, after all the building and makeovers I get bored and quit.

lol I know! How could someone not realize that would be a really bad idea?

The last Twilight book? I've read it twice. It was weird the first time, because it is so much like this fanfic I read before eclipse even came out that I was like, deja vu! But the second time I read it, it was way better, because I didn't think about it, I just read it and enjoyed it. lol One of my managers at work has been stuck on New Moon for like six months. She really wants to read it, but she keeps catching Bella's depression and giving up.

I wanna see it!!!! See No Evil? Is that the one with the song Jesus Loves the Little Children?? OMG I haven't seen that in forever! lol The soundtrack to SoaP is fuckin awesome! I still listen to it. In fact, I've been using that one song Wake Up as my morning alarm :P

Jim Sturgess?? *goes to imdb to check it out* That's the guy from Across the Universe!! I knew I knew him from somewhere! Yeah, that was soooo sad. That's when I cried. I was like, "Noo!!! He's innocent! Noooooooo!!!" lol

Wow, the powerpuff girls. LMAO! Do you remember that time at HC back in middle school, when Clint thought he was singing the James Bond theme song, and Patrick was like, "Clint, that's Powerpuff Girls!!"

I want to see that, but I don't have anyone to go with. I mean, maybe, but not really. I'll probably just wait to rent it. I was wondering how the 3D part would work. When I heard that, I was like, wow is this 1950? We still do 3D? But I guess if they do it well, it would be cool.

I watched the City of Ember the other day, and I loved it! I got way into it.

Oh my gosh, I have 2 classes, in a row, with Keelee O. on Mondays and Wednesdays. It's weird.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Lol yeah, I'm the same way. That's why I haven't worried about it or whatever and just play it. But everytime I've tried putting in the coat hook or the blender or whatever is when it messes up my game, so I've completely given up on that and just decided to use the adoption agency.

Lol I haven't even gotten to the first one yet. I keep wanting to go buy it, but then I run across something else and buy it instead.

Lol I heard it was ok, but I didn't wanna finish it. Yup, its that one. It wasn't as freaky as it was the first time we watched it, like the end, haha wow, I forgot about that. Lol nice! I still listen to most of them, I've got the Cobra Starship song on a few burned CD's, and I got Hector into a few of the songs too.

Lol yeah, that guy. I know! I hated Eric Bana(is that his last name?) in that movie!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA OMG! I totally do! That was so funny!!!!You know, Hector's friends with Clint on Facebook, and they actually talk sometimes...weird.

Call Brittany, well, ok, no, cause then she'd have to bring her boyfriend, and I think you'd end up wanting to kill her boyfriend. I'd go see it with you if I was there.

City of Ember? What's that/

Wow! That's crazy, does she talk to you?

Ok, so me and Hector got an online Netflix thing, and I was watching movies yesterday cause I was having bad acid reflux and Hector wouldn't be home til after 7. SO! I watched P2, and that movie was weird. I also watched umm...Asylum. That movie was...weird...like...kind of a fake weird. I mean, it was ok I guess, but the graphics, yeah...weird movie...

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: lol Dude, I was like, adoption agency? Is that a new hack? And then I was like...adoption agency...ooh! Duh! Like to actually adopt...Only thing is, unless you've downloaded a full set of CAS face replacements, the kid you get is going to be maxis-ugly.

lol I get that. I've been reading the Harry Potter books since friggin Halloween, because I keep getting distracted by something else.


I don't remember the end. I don't remember See No Evil being really scary, but I remember it being awesome in its failed attempt to be super scary. The Cobra Starship song is the shinzit! Er, shiznit.

Yeah, Eric Bana. I had to go check imdb again. Henry VII was a DICK. In his later years, he got so fat that he couldn't wipe his own ass, and there was a servant whose job it was to clean the king's shitty fat ass.

Wow. It's weird to reconnect with people from way back when.

Dude, I work with her boyfriend, silly. The other day, he was like, "You went to school with Brittany, right? Did you know I'm dating her?" And I was like, "Yeah I've known for a looong time." And he was like, "Oh." :P Do you not like him?

You've never heard of City of Ember?? Dude, you would've laughed your ass off if you had seen the face I just made. When I read what you said, I took a deep breath and held it, and got this really shocked look on my face...I guess you had to see it. It's made from this book series, and it's awesome! It's about this city deep underground, and they don't believe that there is anything out there, nothing above ground or anything, and these two kids need to find the way out before it's too late.

We haven't actually talked. I mean, we said the requisite 'hi's' and 'how are you's', and our frist Non Western Lit class she was introducing herself, and then she said, "And this is M. F. (only my whole name, which I don't want to type here), and she went to Holy Cross." And I was like..."Yeah. Hi."

lol I watched P2 on Netflix too! I haven't seen Asylum. But I watched James and the Giant Peach on Netflix :P They have tv shows like CSI and Law and Order SVU on watch instantly.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Yeah, I know that much. I got a little annoyed a few days ago cause my chick got preggy with twins, now she's preggy again.

I know. I get distracted so easily these days.

Lol Shinzit. Hector started laughing his ass off at the end. I can't really remember it right now though cause I've been watching a lot of other movies the past few days.

Ohh wow. That's amazing, that's gotta suck nuts to have to do that as a job.

Right, I forgot he works at the place in Hastings. Its not that I don't like him, but I've been around him enough to where there are those times where I just don't want to listen to him talk. I remember back when all Brittany did was talk about how much she liked him and he liked her but they weren't gonna date, and now they're dating! I don't know, I guess its just cause I've known him for too long.

Lol Dude! Any look you make is funny when it comes to something I say, you're always so shocked, and you're shocked looks are always funny. Ohh that's right, I remember seeing previews for that. Was it good?

Nice. Our first semester at AC she was at the bookstore when I was there and she said hi. She's left me comments on myspace too.

I'm watching umm...shit, I can't think of what this movie is called now. Lets see, I watched Timber Falls yesterday, and umm...a few other movies, but they sucked. I watched The Water Horse last night with Hector. It was ok. The movie I'm watching is Naked Fear. I can't think of any other movies worth mentioning that I've watched. Timber Falls though, holy crap. That movie was effin weird. Stupid christian people. You should watch it. I don't know if you'll like...like it a lot, but it gets really weird. Zelda from Sabrina is in it, and she's the bad lady.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: lol Yeah, but taking care of babies isn't so bad in the Sims world. Then when they're toddlers you get to dress them up and watch them be all adorable.

I rented Mirrors...wow. That bathtub scene had me all 'ew' and then when her brother sees her, I was all 'aw.'

I know. I mean, my job's crappy, but at least not literally. You know how everybody thinks medieval knights were handsome, rugged heroic types? Totally not. Their armor was so hard to remove that they just pissed and shit themselves whenever, and they had servants whose only job it was was to clean the armor when they finally took it off. That's what I think of when my job gets to be too much.

I overheard him and this other cafe girl talking a few days ago, and he was annoying as hell. He just sounded so pompous. I really wanted to tell him to shut the fuck up.

That's true, I do find myself making some retarded faces when we talk. I can't help it. My face has a mind of its own. City of Ember was awesome. I almost bought it, until I remembered that I'd seen it the day before, so I could wait till the price dropped. I did buy Fly Away Home, though. I loved that movie when I was a kid.

Yeah, I think we're friends on MySpace too.

lol I liked thw Water Horse because the baby Nessie was adorable. Timber Falls...that sounds familiar. Are you watching all these movies on Netflix? Zelda was the strict scientist aunt, right? She was on Lost too. I just watched Harry Potter 5, because I finished the book. I totally cried.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Yeah, except for still having to worry about need to be fed and all that stuff. That's a real pain cause I still can't get the insim or anything to work.

I know. That part got to me. I'm ok with scary movies, but damn!

OHHHH DAMN. That's some nasty shit. Good thing we live in the now and not the then. EW!

LOL Yeah, I like being around his twin more than him, but they are both annoying as hell.

Lol your face has a mind of its own?? Wow. Its ok, I think mine does too, cause Hector makes fun of my facial expressions when I'm talking to him too. Fly Away Home? Which movie is that?

It was! It was so cute, so silly! Yes, all in the horror. See, I watched it cause it sounded familiar. Yup, that aunt. HP 5, which one is that one? Is that the one with that chick from Fight Club but I can never remember her name... Helena Bonham Carter?

I went and saw Taken last night. It was good! Like, omg, so freaking good! I totally recomend that! Let me see...I was gonna say something else and I effin forgot.

Ohh, I almost walked out on Hector yesterday. I've never been so pissed at him. I don't even know how to explain everything that happened. At the end, I got so pissed I went outside cause I was gonna talk to him about right? Cause he was working on the car. (Ok, I have to backtrack a minute. I can't remember if I told you or not, so I'm going to tell you anyways. Hector has always said he doesn't mind drinking if its just me, but he would rather us not do it around other people. And so I agreed, no drinking unless its just us.) So when I stepped outside, I saw him drinking with some guys that were also outside. I got pissed, that's where I drew the line cause I'm so tired of hypocr...I don't even know how to spell it. But then he talked to me...eventually.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Yeah. Try the stuff here - http://www.simlogical.com/sl/Sims2Pages/Sims2_Childcare.htm I never used it because I figured I was doing well without it (because I usually aged the babies to toddlers after only a couple hours).

Seriously, there's a point in some of these movies when it's like 'Okay, movie makers, you're just trying to hard. It would have been just as scary if they hadn't actually shown all that gore - maybe a little tearing of the skin, then blood spurting all over the walls. Leave it the imagination, it's scarier.

lol I know, right! Those poor ignorant fools, they never even knew the simple joy of the intertubes or artery-clogging fast food. Pity them.

Well I didn't know he was a twin.

Uh, yeah it totally does. Doi. Fly Away Home is the one with Rouge from X-Men and the geese!

Yeah, Helena Bonham Carter played Bellatrix LeStrange. Dood, you need to read those books. I just read books 6, after staying up like all night even though I had school, and I'm going to bed now (at 3 pm) but I'm gonna start book 7 later. I cried SO hard at the end of book 6. Seriously, I was so into it, and then BAM this thing happened that I wasn't expecting and I was sobbing. :(

I wanna see that! Maggie Grace, who played...uh...Shannon on lost plays the daughter from the previews.

Have y'all ever considered marriage counseling? Because I've been talking to some older married people I know, and even them who've been married over 5 years are on the verge of divorce, and their problems reminded me a lot of you and Hector. You're just so young, and Hector is just so bad for you. I worry about you having a marriage like your mom's, stuck with a person who doesn't deserve you and most certainly doesn't treat you right. You've shown remarkable loyalty, determination, and...there's a word...means basically you made a vow and you've been working hard to keep it. I don't think Hector has the emotional capacity to be an equal partner in your marriage, and I think that if he hasn't learned after all this time, after hurting you countless times, after you forgiving him like a saint again and again, that he needs to change drastically...some people don't get better. I can tell my dad a million times how he could better, and he'll still be him. My father's been doing the same thing for thirty years, first with his first wife, then my mom, and now he's met a woman as bad as he is. Thirty years of priests, psychologists, and his own daughters pleading with him hasn't done much. Hector is a young, stubborn boy - yes, boy - who has enlisted in a stringent, controlling atmosphere, but hasn't shaped up. And I'm afraid that in thirty years he'll be doing the same shit he is now. You don't deserve to be put in that position, with someone who lies and obviously - and of course I can't see in his mind - but if a man can lie to you, blatantly, can be that hypocritical (spell check is a godsend, I've always had trouble with that word too), I have to wonder how much he loves you. And if its enough. Love is one of the smallest components that make a marriage last forever and be a good one. I think you have what it takes. I think you love someone who doesn't.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Lol ok, I'll check it up...no, out.

I know, right? Gore can be a little too much in most movies. Gore is what makes me not wanna watch it, not the scaryness of it.

Lol I know! Artery-clogging food, lol.

Yeah, the other one works at Roasters. Not sure if he still works at the old one on Georgia, or if he started at the new one on Georgia. But imagine, if he's that annoying, you don't wanna meet his twin. The twin just happens to be a little...well, ok, nevermind. I haven't seen his twin in a while, so I don't really know anymore. Brit says he's gotten more annoying, but that's her opinion.

OHHHHH. That one with the R. Kelly song?

Dang...there are 7 books? WHAT? Where have I been?

It was really good. It kept me on the edge of my seat, and I don't get into action movies, nor Liam whatever his last name is.

I've thought about it. I mean, we have good moments, and lately we've been doing a lot better about not fighting. But then there are those days where its just...one of us is in a bad mood that day or, I'm on my period right now, so I've been cranky, and I know that. I been in a real bitchy mood lately. This period has hit me hard! Its gay. I know Hector's immature, and there have been fights where he's come out and said that he doesn't want to lose me and all this other stuff that I won't repeat cause the list gets long. I know he doesn't, but you know, I'm hoping we don't turn into one of those couples. I mean, I met this new couple that lives in the same apt complex as us, and we hung out with them, literally, all weekend. Hmm...I forgot where I was going with that... Ohh right, the girl, me and her were talking the other day, and she was telling me about all these other couples that they know that live in this apt complex where the girls are cheating on their husbands, and I'm like, Seriously? Why are people like that? Its like, everyone I know here that's married have so many issues and I keep telling meself that I don't wanna end up like them cause shit, if everyone thought me and Hector had issues, all them need to come here. Its almost depressing. But I don't know, I know we got issues we need to work on, and I've tried, but its pretty hard when he's never here. He's out in the field right now, and won't be back til Saturday. Its pretty gay, I'm all by myself.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Unnecessary gore is what I don't like. I mean, I can take it on shows like Bones and CSI, but then you get movies like Hostel where there really is no point to the movie but the gore, and it's like...yuck.

What were you going to say? The twin is a little what? Now it's going to bug me.

R Kelly??? Are we talking about Fly Away Home? I hate R Kelly :(

lol Yeah, seven books. I don't know, have you been living under a rock? :P

I want to see that, but I'll probably just wait until it comes out on dvd.

You can't say your marriage is okay because it's better than someone else's. People who cheat on their spouses shouldn't be married at all. But cheating, bad as it seems, isn't the worst thing that can happen in a marriage.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: I know, right?

I don't remember what I was going to say... The twin used to be ok, but I think now he's worse than the one that works at Hastings, but i don't really know cause I haven't seen him in...a long ass time.

Yeah, didn't he come out with a song for that movie? Called something like Fly Away Home? Omg, now that's going to bug me. I forgot about it too. Shit.

We moved and so I haven't had internet or anything, its so gay. We got new furniture too. And we finally met another military couple that's been married for about as long as us, and I swear, they could be our twins if we looked the same. From what she's told me about her husband, him and Hector are one in the same. Same thing with me and her. Its weird. We all fight the same, but since we've all been hanging out, no one's been fighting. Well, not yet.

I know that there's a lot of stress with me and Hector, and we should probably see a marrage counseler, but I know that Hector is super uptight about talking about his problems to outside people, but I know he's been doing better about it since he's got a friend now. Same with me. Cause now we aren't together 24/7 and all that tension isn't there anymore. (I just went and reread what all I've said in this and my last post, and I forgot I already told you about the other couple. But I'm so tired that I don't want to go and erase it. Sorry.) But we have been doing better about not fighting, and when we do fight not going all anal on each other.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Yep.

Oh.

I looked up the soundtrack, and R Kelly's not listed.

lol I was reading that last paragraph, and my eyes jumped to 'anal' and I was like "OMG!" and then I read what you said, and I was like, "Okay, then."

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: ZOMG, so as of yesterday I've been on ET for 5 years...

Time, man...it's too quick.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Hmm...I could...its called I Believe I Can Fly, but maybe it wasn't for that movie.

Lol that's funny. I would have done the same thing.

Wow, that's a long time. I've been on longer though, shit.

I know! So fast...too fast...

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: lol Dude! I didn't know that was an R Kelly song, and it was for the movie Space Jam.

I know, you're the one who got me on here. Mostly because you were on at school like all the time. Seems like a different life.

Our house has mice! Yesterday we caught 7...SEVEN...in those glue pad traps. One went in my room, and Chewy went farking nuts, like crazier than when he chases lasers. I kept thinking that if he saw a mouse he'd run FROM it, but I was wrong.

I'm so tired right now...

When I was driving around today, to school, the bank, and Wal-Mart for gas, I was blasting 80's music, with the windows rolled down, and the really cold wind blowing. It was fun.

Seriously, I'm sleeeeepy. I actually went to bed at midnight last night, planning to get up at 7:30, but I woke up at 4 and couldn't go back to sleep. Which is retarded, because most Sunday nights I work so I don't go to bed until late and get about 4 hours of sleep, which sucks the next day. Arg. So I got up and played the Sims 2!

lol Do you have University? In the Academie la Tour uni, there's a household called 'Friends', both guys, and I was giving them makeovers and bought them a new house and all, and I noticed that one guy had the turn-ons of black hair and glasses...his roomie has black hair and glasses. I was like, come on, EA, if you're going to make gay roomies, don't try to hide it by calling their house 'Friends.' So then I changed their gender bias to fully gay, and they just started making out right away. :P

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Seriously, these mice are driving me crazy. I heard Baby going crazy (nothing new) and went to see, and she and Bishy were sniffing about the head of my mom's bed, well it's really just a mattress on top of box strings, so there is no 'under the bed.' I grabbed a towel, thinking I'd finally be able to catch one alive, and scooted the bed out a bit. Sure enough, there it was, and it ran out, right past Bishop and then it farking disappeared. I was like, "Congratu-fucking-lations, Bish, YOU let it escape!" And he just wagged his tail and jumped on the bed...

This is farked up.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Ohh, haha wow, I was way off!!!!! LMAO

I know. OMG, I was thinking about high school the other day, and all of the sudden, Adam popped into my head. It drove me nuts.

Ohh wow. That's crazy. I remember when there were mice in my parents house. Eh, I hate mice,

I was doing that the other day. Minus the 80s music, just random music.

Wow, I haven't played the Sims in a while cause that other couple has been over here everyday. A little ridiculous. OMG though, I got a little drunk the other night. I can't really remember why I did, cause I told myself I didn't want to, but I did. And now because of that, I WILL never do it again.

Ohh wow. No, I only have Nightlife and umm...something else. I got some of those clothing things when my stuff on the comp wasn't working. Those are a little cool, but now I haven't been paying attention to them.

Lol my dogs would have...no, they would probably try and play with it and chase it everywhere. You should borrow Hector's parents dog, our first dog, Max. He'll fucking catch mice for you, he goes nuts with those things out at their house. He freaking at rat poison too, a whole box of it! And he still fucking lived!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Yeah, way waaay off. I totally forgot about Space Jam. For some reason, I think I really liked that movie.

Adam R or G?

Me too. Although, I used to want one of those itty mouse like hamsterish things, but then I realized that one of my cats would eat it...

I love 80s music.

Good. Drinking is bad. This stupid idiotic pathetic group of like 13 year olds (well, they were acting 13, but they were either juniors or seniors) was at MyWork talking about how they looove drinking, and they sounded like morons. Kids drink to escape, but alcohol is totally a downer. What they need are some intense uppers.

I'm so mad. My uni couple went on a great date last night, and the game crashed!!! I literally screamed "Nooo!!" just like I did when Wilson fell off the raft in Cast Away. :P

Wow, that's crazy. I think we're almost rid of them, though.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Yeah, you know what, me too. I didn't like what's his face, but I loved bugs bunny and daffy and all them. OMG, I kind of want to watch that movie now.

No...Adam as in...Missouri...no, Minnesota Adam. Remember?

Lol I had one for a little while, but Hector got tired of it so we gave it to a little kid here in the apt complex. It was so cute. It was all flat and fluffy.

I like some 80s music. Like, we have Rockband, and they have all kinds of rock...its crazy, but catchy.

Yeah, god, when I was drunk I almost took a shower with a chick. Til I threw up and got all sick, which I almost thank my stomach, but yeah, I told Hector that I'm good for the rest of my life.

Omg, I've done that too! I was pissed too though. Haha we got HBO channels, and what movie was it... I don't know, I was watching some movie, and out of nowhere I thought of Cast Away, and I went, Wilson!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And Hector just looked at me like I was crazy...

Yeah, we have ant problems here. It sucks ass!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: lol I don't want to watch it. I'm afraid that if I do, I'll think its retarded, so I'd rather just keep the fond memories. I hate it when I reread or rewatch something I used to love only to find that it sucks.

Oh yeah...that.

Aaw.

Yeah, some of it's silly, some of it sucks, some is awesome, and some sucks so bad its awesome.

...wow, so I'm thinking its a good choice for you to not drink anymore.

lol Cast Away is the shit!!! I fucking love that movie. I wnat to watch it again now.

I just watched the Secret Life of Bees, and I swear for like an hour of it I was crying. Like sobbing. I had to pause it in one spot, because I couldn't see clearly. It was a really good movie, I'm just a baby. But this guy at work said it even got to him.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: ZOMG I just watched Quarantine...I got so freaked that my neck hurts from keeping it so tense. A little over halfway through the movie, Chewy jumped on my bed and hit my leg, and I friggin almost screamed.

The main girl, Jennifer Carpenter I think her name is, plays Dexter's sister on Dexter! I love Dexter!!!!!

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Yeah, that's happened to me a few times. I watched Prom Night last night, it was pretty good, deffinetly better than I thought it was going to be.

Yeah...

Lol Yeah, deffinetly a good choice. And I'm totally ok with that. Its weird though cause everyone we know drinks. Its a little annoying.

It is!!!!!!!

I want to see that! So badly!!!! I've seen it on demand and I want to get it, but I haven't yet. Now I wante to even more! Arg!

Haha arg...

Really? I heard it wasn't that good...cause the camera or whatever was shaking the whole time.

Dexter? Lol I put Desxter the first time...haha I'm dumb.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Prom Night was better than I thought it would be, but it was a little too teen horror for me. lol After I watched Quarantine (alone in complete darkness) I decided to watch High Tension again since I was in such a horrory mood. It wasn't as good the second time, because the twist didn't surprise me, but I'd forgotten all the stuff in between the guy in the van with the severed head and the end, so I was pleasantly surprised that it still freaked me out.

Well, you don't have to follow the pack. Being sober around drunk people sucks, but at least you can be lucid enough to not make whoopie and or do anything sexual with another girl/someone who's not your husband, and you get to watch the drunk people act like retards.

Okay, I'm finding it very hard to follow the conversation, probably just because, you know, the porch light is on but nobody's home, the elevator doesn't go all the way to the top, the wheel is turning but the hamster is dead. You want to see the Secret Lives of Bees so badly, right? It was soooooo good.

Well, yeah, Quarantine is all shot by one camera, which one character carries the whole time, so like people bump into the camera, people block the view a couple times, he drops the camera, he even uses the camera to kill a bitch. But it made it so cool. I think had they done it some other way it wouldn't have been as good. It got a little frantic sometimes, but that made it even better, because it like made the freakyness of the situation more prominent, like that's what you would see if you were there. I totally thought that it would be crappy because of 28 Days Later and all those other movies about killer crazy diseases that make people monsters, but it wasn't just another movie like that. I mean, it kind of was, but it was so good it didn't matter.

Dexter's that Showtime show about the sociopathic serial killer who happens to be a totally lovable guy, who's also hot. :D

lol I rented the Borrowers today. You remember that movie? The other day, I have no clue why, but I got the weirdest desire to watch that movie. OOOH Yeah!! Because the guy who plays Draco Malfoy is in it, which I found out when I was randomly searching IMDB's Harry Potter pages.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Yeah, and I don't really like Brittany Snow. I haven't seen High Tension in a freaking long time...like junior year...

I know. I had never cared just like...having a drink...or something, you know? But that was shots of straight vodka, which is what got to me. But I've always been ok with not being drunk and watching everyone else be jackasses.

Lol Yes, I do want to see it, I just haven't. I also kind of want to see Tyler Perry's The Family that Prays...is that what its called?

Yeah, I actually really wanted to see it, but all the people I know here have said that you shouldn't see it if you get like, motion sickness easily cause of the shaky camera. But I still kind of want to see it. I never saw 28 Days Later, but I never really wanted to.

Everytime you say Dexter I think of the Cartoon Network Dexter lol. I've been watching Nip Tuck lately...don't know why...I just have. And something else, but I can't...OHHHHH Secret Life of an American Teenager. Yeah...I've gotten hooked into that.

The Borrowers? I don't think so... What's...ohhhhhhh!!!!! With that fat guy????

DOOD! Did you go see my pic of my new hair color??? I'm amazed I did it to myself!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: I have no idea why, but every time I think of Brittany Snow I think of Julie Benz (played Darla in Buffy and Rita in DEXTER!!). Weird. They don't really look alike.

I figure the world is depressing enough. If I'm going to do anything mind-altering (stress the if, here), I'd do intense uppers.

Yeah, The Family the Prays...although I don't know why but I thought it was the Family that Preys...

You never saw 28 Days Later? Yes you did, we watched it together. I know I watched it with someone, and I thought it was you...remember, it was like the first horror movie that showed dick instead of tits (Cillian Murphy is hot). That had to have been you! I was like obesessed with that movie when it came out. O.o Confused now.

lol Remember when we watched season 3 of Nip/Tuck, with that killer, and we got soooo into it. I haven't seen that other show.

lol Yeah, that guy who was in Rosanne I think.

No, but I'll go see it now.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: It's sooo dark. But it looks pretty!

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Lol I wouldn't know.

Yeah, well, I'm deffinetly ok with not drinking anymore. Though, I'm pretty sure at some point in time after I turn 21, I'll have a margarita just because I want to try one or something, but then again, who knows what I'll do.

Ohh...I was thinking of 28 Weeks Later. Ok, yeah, I've seen 28 Days Later. MY BAD!

Lol yeah, this one isn't bad. I haven't watched it lately though. The new episode comes on tomorrow night I think. OMG, so the first episode I saw was a few weeks ago, and this dood wanted to get a penis REDUCTION cause he could give himself blowjobs! He was tired of not having a sex life with women! It was funny! The other show isn't that bad. But, I started watching it cause I saw the first epsiode when it first started, so since I did that, now I want to keep watching to find out what happens.

Yeah, I actually liked it. The color has washed out some now though, so now it looks like a really really dark brown.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Yeah, on my 21st birthday I'll get drunk, but after that if I drink at all, it will be in serious moderation. I can't help but link in my mind being drunk and being crazy. You remember my aunt that died? Her husband was a drunk, and he was a crazy bastard that scared me.

I don't know if I even saw 28 Weeks Later...oh I might have, I just didn't like it nearly as much.

So he could give himself blowjobs????? That's disgusting. lmao Which Scary Movie was it where that guy in the wheelchair gave himself a blowjob? That guy on Nip/Tuck must've been really flexible.

I'm never dying my hair again. Although sometimes I still wish I was a redhead.

I've been watching Law and Order SVU on Netflix again. It's so depressing, but I can't stop. In my Children's Literature class, the teacher told us that Lewis Carrol is thought by some to have been a pedophile, and all I could think about was Elliot and Olivia interrogating Lewis Carrol like a perp...

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: I just got a summons for fucking jury duty. Good thing I'm a full time student, so I don't have to go.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Yeah. Dood, we have to be together on our 21st's! That would be farking crazy!!!!

I didn't. I didn't really want to. I did at first, but then the more I thought about it, I was like, Hmm...no.

Yeah, he was a yoga teacher! OMG! And Christian's cancer came back and his doc was all, You only have six months left. So he went and got married to Liz cause he didn't wanna die alone. So then after they got married, his doc called and was like, This person got your results mixed up with another womans, and you're cancer is curable. And that's how the season ended, I was like holy freak! I think it was...the second scary movie that did that. Yeah, wait...yeah, the second.

I keep debating on what I want to do with my hair. I like having it one color more though. I'm tired of highlights. But IDK!!!

Wow. You know, there's this show on HBO called Oz, have you ever heard of it? Its freaking weird, but Elliot is in it.

Haha wow, I haven't gotten one yet.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: ZOMG! Yes! That would be the shiznit. We should do something on your 21st, because then we could both go to a bar. You know what, I've been thinking about going to Las Vegas for my birthday. I mean, then I could go to a really snazzy bar to get blotto legally :P

Yeah, sequels are almost always disappointing.

lol Yeah, the yoga thing makes it easier to believe. OMG I didn't know Christian got cancer!!! What kind? The only time I watched Nip/Tuck after the awesome season 3 I saw this episode with Kimber and Matt, and it was so weird that I couldn't keep watching.

I don't know what to do with your hair either :P You look good as a blond and brunette.

Holy fuck...I'm laughing so hard right now that I can barely type. I went to imdb to check out Christopher Meloni's filmography...did you know he played Freakshow in Harold and Kumar??? FREAKSHOW!! lmfao

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: OMG that would be so cool!

I know, huh?

I don't know. They never actually said what kind it was, cause he had it, then it went away, and then it came back. Yeah, OMG! Kimber fucking gave her daughter lip implant thingys! No, she made Christian do it!!

Lol yeah, I'm kind of tired of being blonde though, you know? I was blonde for so long that I just wanted something different.

LMAO OMG! Really???? That's freaking crazy! That's omg...that's so funny...

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Yep!!

Fo sho.

Ooh. She gave her daughter lip implants!! Isn't her daughter a baby? And didn't Sean's wife have a baby with deformed arms?

Yeah, I get that. Sometimes I want to do something drastically different to my hair, and then I'm like...naw.

I know! I would never EVER have guessed that, so I searched Google for a picture of Freakshow, and you can kind of tell that it's him. Now I want to see that movie again. I still have never seen Harold and Kumar Escape from Guantanamo Bay.

Geez, at work today, there were these three young people, probably early 20s sitting at the table in the Children's department, and this young, like probably 16-18 year old black kid was yelling at one guy at the table. I went up to tell the kid to leave or we'd call the police. Turns out, the kid was in the store with his girlfriend, and about five-ten minutes earlier, he hit his girlfriend in the Music department, then punched one of the shelves. The three people at the table had seen, and later when they met again in the book department, the kid looked the one guy in the eyes and hit his girlfriend across the face for NOTHING. So the guy told the kid not to hit her again. The three people went back and sat at the children's table, and the kid goes back there, tells the guy he's on the phone with his friend, and that his friends will come up to the store and kick the guy's ass. I didn't know all that when I went to intervene, I just thought the kid was being a punk. Anyway, the kid threatened me and I told him we were going to call the cops if he didn't leave. I didn't know, but we already had. So he goes and finds his girlfriend, and then I found out that she was the one he'd been hitting, and I got pissed. She didn't want to leave, and he was trying to physically drag her out of the store. Finally, after threatening me and this other associate again, he left, and then the cops got there. It was crazy. I thought this kid was going to attack someone. All I kept thinking, was if he hits his girlfriend in front of me, I'll kick him in the balls.

One of the cops who came was really hot, in the man in uniform kind of way.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Fo sho?????

Yeah, exactly! Whos' Sean again?

Yeah, I've always said no, then I was like, What the hell! Lets do it!

Really? I finially watched it! It was ok. I think I like the first one a little better. In the second one there are lots of vaginas! But, then again, there are bits and pieces of the second one I liked, it was just weird. They love getting themselves into trouble, and all for stupid girls and White Castle! Jeez!

OMG! There's a place here called Krystal that has stuff exactly like White Castle, like the little mini burgers! I don't know they're good or worse than White Castle since I've never been to one, but they were SO TINY!!!!!

Ohh wow. That's crazy! That's a lot of drama for Hastings, holy shit! I'd have kicked him in the balls too.

HAHA figures you'd say something like that! I love a man in uniform, though I must say I'm getting really tired of the military uniform hotness. Its wearing old on me cause I see it ever fucking day. And you know, military guys aren't even hot! Well, 99% of them aren't. Did you ever see Stop Loss?

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Yeah, fo sho fo sho.

Sean MacNamara, isn't that Christian's partner's name?

Lots of vaginas? lol Not surprising, seeing as the movie markets mostly to males. Why can't more American movies have better nudity? By better, I mean less pointless and more male. :P

lol I got frozen White Castle burgers at Wal-Mart once, and they weren't great. But I think mini burgers are cute. Why is everything cute when its mini?

I know, waayy too much drama. The very next day, one of the team leads stole almost a thousand dollars from the safe, and ran from the cops.

Don't tell me military guys aren't hot. I still imagine them as Jake Gyllenhaal in Jarhead. Nice and hot. :P I never saw Stop Loss. Was it good?

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: LMAO Wow, really? I didn't think I'd ever hear, or see, you say that.

Yeah, I just forgot. I don't know about his wife, the episodes I saw didn't talk about his wife. He was hooking up with an anesthesist...? I don't know if that's how you spell it or not...

Lol I say that to Hector all the time! It needs way more male nudity! I'm tired of seeing boobies, we need more penis!

I don't think I'd ever get frozen anything, we've learned our lessons with that lol.

Holy shit. What is up with all this drama???? Its ridiculous.

Well, some are hot, but so many of them smoke shit and dip, eh, they're gross. But I won't lie, there are a select few that are pretty cute!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: lol Well, I wouldn't say it if it weren't for Bo Fo Sho. You 'member, riiight? "Like a tampon thief, I had to pull some strings."

Anesthesiologist I think. At least, my spell check says that's right. That shows a little too dramatic for me.

lol Right on! Hollywood is supposed to give the people what they want, and I say they want dick :P

Yeah, I usually don't, but I saw White Castle and I was like...zomg, what would Harold and Kumar do?? Get baked and eat White Castle. Unfortunately, I don't know where to get any primo weed, so I just got the burgers.

I know, some days the drama gets to be too much. I just want to go home and watch Gilmore Girls, where the worst drama a messy love triangle or something. That or watch me some X-Files, so I can think, at least my life isn't that dramatic.

Okay, thanks. My fantasy is intact. Dip? Eeeww yucky yucky. That's chewin' tobacco, right? Every time I see someone doing that, I think, 'Have fun while you still have all of your jaw, dumbass.'

Okay, so it's 5:30 am, and the tile guy is coming in four hours, and my plan was to stay up and clean after work instead of sleeping five hours and getting up to clean, but I don't think I'm going to make it. I'm getting old, man. Staying up all night is hard anymore.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: ...I have no clue what you're talking about...

What show? Oh, Nip Tuck. Yeah, its pretty crazy, but I've been getting into all sorts of shows lately. Its weird!

LMAO I totally freaking agree! MORE DICK! We should go protest!

Lol I think I'm good without the weed, I'd deffinetly be ok with just the burgers. But even then, I'm ok without the burgers.

I had like...some kind of allergic reaction(according to my dad) and my tounge and underneath my tounge is like...super swollen. But its only the left side, and my throat is starting to get a little sore. WTF its annoying!

I know, huh? Hectors been being all anal lately cause I'm "getting fat" and I need to start losing weight. I know I've gained weight, but he's acting like I've just gained freaking 5000 lbs or something. He like, got all dramatic the other night. This is weight he said, "I keep asking you to go to the gym or something and lose that weight and you just won't do it. It really frustrates me." I was like, wtf? Really? And I just let it go.

Lol yeah. I know, huh? I think of all the videos they showed in school of messed up faces and stuff. Ewwwwwwww!!!!!

I know! I was staying up half the night for a while, but Hector was having a hissy fit and started fights when he'd come home for lunch and I was still asleep. So now I've been trying to go to bed early, and I'm tired by like, 11 or 12, and so I've actually started trying to go to bed then, but I just end up laying in bed for hours! Its so annoying!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: http://www.youtube.com/user/boburnham?blend=1&ob=4

Bo Burnham is a lower-case-g god. He has a CD, and I'm totally going to buy it.

Yeah, I've been watching tons of new shows on Hulu.com. Most of the good shows are over now, but Lie to Me and Ghost Hunters have new eps coming out. Have you ever seen Lie to Me? If you haven't, you need to go to Hulu and watch you some, because it is the shit.

Yeah! We can have picket signs shaped like penises!

lol I agree about the weed, but some days, man, I think it would be nice.

Geez, what did you eat???

Sure, you're getting fat. The girl who used to be so skinny she disappeared if she turned sideways. He might be your husband, but he can't dictate how you treat your body. Good thing you let it go. He's just insane.

How can anyone who's seen a picture like that, and probably most people have, go and do it anyway? Do they seriously think that they're immune from cancer, even when they jam carcinogens in their mouths all day? Dummies.

Yeah, it's hard to go to bed early. Dood, after staying up all night yesterday, I went to bed at 5 pm, woke up at 3:30 am, stayed up for a few hours, then went back to bed and woke up at noon. I guess I'm making up for the past week of like 5-6 hour nights of sleep. It was ridiculous. And I had really stupid dreams. Like really really retarded.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Lol really?

Lol I haven't, what's it about?

Lol I know! That would be freaking awesome!

Lol I just hear so many bad things about it. Like, the girl friend here, she did weed once, and then had a panic attack cause her body couldn't accept it, or something like that.

I don't, I still haven't figured it out. But, it was all on the left side of my mouth, now its all on the right. It fucking hurts!

Well, I just didn't see the point in arguing with him about it. He kind of reminds me of Mr Stocker sometimes. He's ALWAYS gotta be right!

I know. How could anyone want to look like that? I mean, shit, ewwwwwwwwwww!!!!! I'd kill myself if I lost that much of my face...

Yeah, I was having nights where I'd go to sleep late, and then Hector comes home from pt in the morning at 8, and he freaking wakes me up sometimes!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Lie to Me is about this guy named Dr. Lightman, and he can tell if a person is lying just by looking at their face. He owns this company called the Lightman Group and they get hired to help in investigations.

Totally farkin' awesome!

I would probably just never do it because people who do do it piss me off. I had to alphabetize the Popular Culture books the other day, and there are tons of mary jane books there, and they're all just the stupidest things ever.

Geez, that sucks.

I loved Mr. Stocker some day, and then somedays I wanted him lynched...

I wouldn't necessarily go that far, but I'd wear a mask like the Phantom of the Opera and take up skydiving and extreme stuff like that, so that fate will decide if I bite it.

Geez, it's not like you have to spend all your time with him. He should let you friggin sleep.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Wow, sounds cool.

Yeah, I think I'll be ok without doing it. I'm good without doing a lot of things. Mary Jane books?

I know, but its finally going away. My tounge is a little sensitive, but other than that, its all gravy!

I don't think there were many days that I ever loved Mr. Stocker. But then again, there weren't many teachers I did love.

Yeah, I don't think I could ever kill myself, but I'd want to. I'd just hid myself from the rest of the world, or cut up people and use their skin as a mask like leatherface and umm...whatever his name is from the Texas Chainsaw Massacre. Are those the same guys? Cause we were watching Leatherface yesterday and I asked Hector if him and that guy were, and niether of us knew.

Its not that he always wakes me up on purpose, sometimes he just makes a lot of noise getting dressed and stuff that it wakes me up. Then, once I do wake up a little bit, he starts talking to me then I wake up more. That's when I get pissed. We moved into this 2 bedroom apartment and I told him to move all his military shit to the other bedroom so he wouldn't wake me up and stuff, but he's still back over in here getting dressed. I've gotten a little used to it, but it still annoys me sometimes.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Yeah, it pretty much kicks ass. Makes me want to go and study microexpressions and shit.

Yeah, books on weed. Like the 'Cannibible 1, 2, and 3.' Or 'Pot Culture.' Or 'How to be a Useless Slacker and Look Like a Total Douche.' Okay, the last one is just what I think they should be called.

Wow, weird. Last night my foot randomly started burning, in one little spot, and it felt so bad I couldn't walk. Then like five minutes later it just stopped. Bodies are weird, man. They do weird things.

lmao Leatherface!! I think they're the same person. I just went to imdb.com, and when I searched 'Leatherface' 'The Texas Chainsaw Massacre' came up.

Yeah. My mom's always loud as shit when she gets ready in the morning.

You know that new movie Last House on the Left? It's a remake of a '72 movie of the same title, and I read that the new one is totally watered down, but the original is like shocking it's so brutal, and two of the StoresIWorkAt in town have two copies in, but both stores can't find them. RE-FUCKING-TARDED!!!

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Lol yeah

LOL I agree. I'd call it that too.

I know! OMG! Ok, so I've been going running with Hector at the part the few nights, ok, well, it started out him running and me walking, but a few nights ago he convinced me to run, then the next morning I woke up with bruises on my ankles and I have a really bad shin splint in my left leg. He convinced me to go back with him last night and I tried running a little bit, and it got worse. After that, I could barely walk. It sucked ass.

See, I had always thought so. The Leatherface we watched had umm...Viggo in it. He was freaky!

Hector can be quiet, but he has velcro all over his acu's, and he does it, then undoes them, then does them, then undoes them. It drives me fucking crazy. If I'm tired enough I won't wake up, but I usually do.

You know what? We actually went and saw that the other day. I actually liked it. I mean, you know how they show that 20 minutes thing before the movie starts? They were showing the making of it, or something like that, and the director was talking about the remake and how he knew it might not be as good, but he still hoped people liked it. AND since I don't know the old one, the new one was still pretty good. Better than I thought it would be. It did make me want to see the old one now though.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: DUDE! You are never going to guess who called me!!!!

JOSH!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: That does suck ass.

Viggo? Viggo! I LOVE Viggo! (imagine me half-screaming that in a hysteric girly voice) I've only seen the new Texas Chainsaw Massacre. But speaking of Viggo, I kind of want to watch LOTR again. I haven't seen it in years.

Well, Velcro is really fun to do and undo and do and undo. Or it was when I was a kid. :P

I'll probably see the new one after I see the original.

Wow. Did you, uh, tell him you're married and he shouldn't call you?

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: I know huh?!

Lol Sadly, I can imagine that. Yeah, I saw that one when it came out in theaters. I watched all the 3 a few weeks ago cause they played them on umm...TNT? I think...one of those movie channels that wasn't USA or Fox. HAHAHAHAHA when I was typing Fox I started typing Cocks.

Lol it is when you're doing it, but when you listen to it at 5, 5, 7, or 8 in the morning, its really freaking annoying. Especially when you're trying to sleep.

Yeah, I didn't know they had an older one til right before we saw the new one when they were talking about it on that 20 thing.

Yeah. He said he knew cause of elftown, but he didn't get on anymore and he wanted to see how I was doing. Weird!

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: LMFAO Ok, so, I'm laying on the bed with Hector cause we were watching a movie and I decided to get on Elftown to see if you had responded. Then, I joking asked Hector if he wanted me ot read him some of our stupid moments, and he actually said yes! So I was going through all of them and in the process he fell asleep, but I still kept going through them and holy crap! I keep forgetting how retarded we were and I fucking laugh my ass off every freaking time! It really makes me think back to all of our HCCA memories though. THOSE were the days!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: lmao Fox cocks? Dude, Freudian slip!! You're subconscious is a slut. :P

Yeah, I bet that would be true. Lucky for me, I wouldn't know from experience :P Although my mom likes to do dishes at 7 am, and that is damned annoying.

I only knew because I was trying to decide whether to go see Taken or LHOTL, so I looked them up online. And I ended up not going at all.

Totally weird!

lol Yeah, we were so farking retarded.

Speaking of reminiscing...I was on Netflix looking for something to watch, and I found Spice World on watch instantly. So I'm watching it! It's only like 9 minutes in, and so far it's just dumb.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Okay, so I gave up not even an hour into the movie. Teh lame.

Dude, you should see the snow here! It's infarkingsane. There are snow drifts like four feet tall. Our entire little side yard has snow all the way up to the top of the fence. I love it!!!!!

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Lol I know huh!

Yeah, we hate doing dishes cause we have a shitty ass dishwaser and we don't eat enough to actually wash a lot of dishes.

Taken is really good. I would probably see that over LHOTL any day.

Lol I know. I miss those days sometimes.

Really? I don't remember ever seeing Spice World. Go figure it would be a shitty movie.

Ohh wow! That sucks! I miss the snow!!!!!!! I don't miss the coldness cause it does get pretty cold here, never as cold as Amarillo, but I do miss the cold.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: OMG you'll never guess what I just did!

Our lights in the rooms with fans have the swith thing on the wall then the strings on the fan next to the lights right? Well, I always keep the switch on and just pull the strings. So me and Hector went out for a little bit then when I got home and I came into our room and went over and pulled the string to turn the light on. And it wasn't turning on, and I was like what the fuck? So I thought the light burnt out and stuff and Hector came in and was like, babe, the switch is off. I was like, ohh, I knew that!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Totally!

I hate doing dishes only because I think dishwashers smell like shiat. Think about it. Little tiny food particles getting stuck in all the nooks and crannies and sitting there rotting. lol Every time I say the world 'rotting' I think of Smeagol. Same with potatoes, precious, sweet, and many others. I got so mad at work the other day, and I was thinking to myself, and I thought a word that reminded me of Smeagol, and I started laughing. You know, the phrase 'thinking to myself' is retarded. Who else would you be thinking to? A telepath? And wouldn't that be creepy, if you were just going along thinking to yourself and a telepath eavesdropped on your brain?

You said it was really good. Now I have to wait for DVD :(

Me dos.

I'm pretty sure I saw it. I only remember one scene, when the double decker bus did a thing like the bus in Speed, you remember? It like jumped over a gap in the road, or something.

Dude, snow is the shit. I love it. I wish I lived in Wyoming, because then I could build an igloo and be an eskimo! I totally just said that out loud as I typed in this retarded voice, and the tile guy is here working :P

lol Dumdum!! You can dye your hair all you want, but you'll always be a blond.

ZOMG my back hurts. Every time I move it it pops, and it hurts real bad.

I'm sleeeeeeeeppppppyyyy...

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Lol wow, random rant much?

Yeah, its totally worth it. I told Hector we were buying it when it came out.

Speaking of speed, I saw it the other day. They've been playing it on HBO.

Lol I say shit out loud all the time when I'm texting or typing of something.

Lol I know, huh? I like having darker hair, I thinking I like it like a real dark brown though.

You know, my back hurts too. It hurts because I got like, hardcore sunburned though and it hurts like a fucker. I can barely even lift my right arm cause its really bad on the back of my shoulder.

I am too, but I haven't been sleeping good lately. I've even been trying to go to bed earlier.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Well, kind of. Not random to me, just normal thought process.

Dang, you must have really liked it.

Speed is the shit. The movie, not the pills. "Fuck me!" "Oh darn!"

lmao The other day, actually it was like a month or two ago, I was at Target shopping, and I was thinking to myself, and I didn't realize that I was talking out loud until I noticed this guy looking at me like I was nuts. I was sooo embarassed.

You can fool strangers about your hair color, but I'll always know the truth...:P

Damn. You shouldn't tan so much. I read this story about this young girl who was addicted to tanning beds and I learned some nasty stuff about tanning. Unless you have extreme sunblock with like Helioplex and UVA and UVB protection, you shouldn't tan. I spent like fifteen minutes checking my freckles for melanoma...O.o

Dude, me too! For the past four days I've been getting up at 9 am or earlier. Monday and Wednesday for school, Tuesday and today because of the stupid asshole who's fixing our tiles. My mom totally wants to sue them. He's in my room right now. It's freaky. I hate him.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: I did...which was weird, cause I don't usually get in to action-ish movies.

Lol I know! OMG! I watched it with my friend here, and she was like, bitching about the movie the whole time. "Its so fake. This is so stupid. This movie is retarded. I don't get it." She like, ruined the whole movie for me.

LMAO WOW!! I do that sometimes,and Hector thinks I'm nuts.

Lol Yeah. I'm thinking that I'll start doing a dark brown maybe. I don't know, I've started liking doing different things with my hair. Though for the past few days I've felt like shit so I haven't done anything.

I haven't been tanning. I haven't been since umm...before prom. I got burnt from being outside with Hector. I haven't been outside since. I mean, I have, but not sitting outside. Its like, killing me. I can't even sleep on my back. BUT! Its starting to get better and turn into a tan.

Then she totally should! I mean, like every time we talk you mention how they're there fixing the tiles. I would!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Me neither.

Geez, that's stupid. That movie is the shiznit.

Well, you kind of are nuts.

Yeah.

I sit outside sometimes with the dogs, but never for too long.

We contacted a lawyer who says we have a pretty good case, and unless the tile company requests a jury trial, we'll be okay. Probably they won't want that, because from the way they've been treating us most recently, they know they're in a bad situation. LOL The last time the tile guy was here, my mom called because she left the number for the lawyer referral place written on a paper in the kitchen, and I read the number and the name "Texas Bar of Lawyer Referral", and the guy was in the dining room, so he totally knows :P

My grandma's really sick. My mom is going out to NC next week. I can't go, and I'm almost relieved that I don't have to see her suffering. Is that horrible of me? I remember her the way she was when I was young, and I don't want to see her so sick. I started crying hardcore at work today. It sucked.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: I know, I love that movie.

Yeah, I get it from you.

I wanted to go outside today, but I never did cause I was feeling the nausea hardcore today. It sucked really bad.

Lol wow. Well that's good, at least its getting taken care of, cause they freaking suck ass!

I don't think its horrible. Sometimes having the better memories are better, though, even if you see her sick you still have the good memories. I guess its just easier if you don't have to watch them suffer because its easier for you to remember all the good things. I don't know what I'll do when my moms dad gets sick. He's the only grandparent I've ever really known, well, besides my dads dad. I don't really remember a lot with him though cause he was always sick, so him being sick is all I really remember. Good memories are always better to have then the last time you see them be when they suffer the most.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Because it's teh awesome. Speed 2, however, not so much.

Probably.

That does suck.

They totally do.

Yeah, I agree.

Dude, I'm sooooo tired.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: There's a number 2????

Wow, I'm guessing the tiredness is why your message is so short. I think this is one of your shortest messages.

You know, I hate morning sickness. I'm like nauseated all freaking day. I finally threw up though.

Ohh dude! Hector's going to another school during May, so I'm going to try and come home for a few weeks that month. I'll be there even if not for a few weeks but for a few days cause my Grandads 90th bday party thing is something I have to be there for, but I'm hoping I can come earlier and be there for a few weeks before that.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: lol You didn't know there was a Speed 2??? Yeah, it's got Sandra Bullock, and the Keanu character is replaced by this other tough cop character and it takes place on a yacht. It's entertaining, but not as brilliant as the first.

Yeah, sorry. I just could not think of a damn thing to say, but I didn't want to not say anything.

Yuck. That sucks. Isn't there any meds for that? Or is it just one of those things you have to live with?

Hey, that'll be great. We can get together and do stuff...like shop at maternity stores! Awww...:P

So my Grandma's still hanging in there, and my mom says she's comfortable, so that's good. I started crying at work today. I was really irritable and sad, and someone asked if I was sick, and I just started crying! They let me go home early.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: No I did not know, but I only knew about Speed because of you.

Its cool.

Its just one of those things you have to live with, and it sucks ass. I didn't feel that bad yesterday, but when I get really hot is when I get really bad, and I've been like...sweating today.

I know! I'm ready to find out the gender so that I can start looking for stuff. I'm starting to really hope its a girl more than a boy, I mean, I'll be ok if its a boy, but I want a girl more.

Wow, well at least she's ok. At least they let you off early instead of having to stay there. How old is your Grandma?

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Yeah, I'm a wealth of info on teh awesomeness.

Yeah, it was so hot up here that the house was 81 degrees, because I'm not smart enough to turn on the AC...

I kinda want it to be a girl too. Girls are so cute. I spent some time with my nephew Alex today, and he's adorable, but such a boy, and little boys are weird.

She was...I don't know. In her 80's. She actually just passed away, about an hour ago. I went to work, but I was crying so much they let me go. Mostly I'm worried about my mom. I have no idea how to deal with grief. I just don't know what to do, you know.

Anyway, on a happier note, I had lunch with Jason, Angie, and Alex today, and Angie asked about you. She'd been going threw some old stuff, and found the signature book from her baby shower, and you had signed it. I told her about Peanut, and she sends her best wishes.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Lol I know!

OMG! Our ac hasn't been working, and I'm like always hot these days, and when I'm hot is when I get the worst, it was driving me crazy! We finally got it fixed now. I think this baby will love the cold because right now I really do!

I know. Me and Hector talked about it I think yesterday, but we talked about wanting it to be a girl more than a boy. I know our parents will go nuts if its a girl, especially my dad. Actually, him and Hectors mom will go crazy either way, but mostly if its a girl.

I'm sorry. At least she's in a better place now, hopefully.

Wow, I figured she'd have forgotten about me. Lol Peanut.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: So I had my appointment on Wednesday right? I didn't get the ultrasound cause this was just paperwork. I had to pee in a cup and have blood taken too. The blook part was the worst thing I'd ever experienced. I actually passed out because I was so...I don't know. It was bad though. I was taking Zofran before I went the see the doc cause of a friend who had some, so I told my doc when I got there, and he gave me an actual prescription for it, and it sucks! It like, doesn't work at all. I'm so pissed! I still want to throw up all the time, I don't, but I can't eat cause it makes me feel like it. Its supposed to prevent puking. Ugh, its so gay!

I didn't get to come home either because Hector didn't go to his school. I was actually a little upset. BUT! I will come home on...the 21st...or the 20th...I don't know, one of those days. I am so ready to go home though. I have my first ultrasound is on the 18th though, so I can't come home now. =(

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Hopefully you'll get over the morning sickness soon. And hey, you might still discover that there's one thing you can eat that doesn't make you sick. Just don't go and name your kid after that one thing. You remember Orangello and Lemonjello, right? :P When my mom was preggos with me, the only thing that made her stomach feel better was Altoids.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Well, for a while it was umm...yogurt, but now its umm...any kind of fast food. Usually a burger... Its weird. I feel amazing after I eat some fries or a little bit of the burger. I also get full really fast on anything I eat, so I can never finish anything. Like I just ate maybe 5 pringles, and I feel stuffed.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: I was randomly flipping channels today and there was this show on TLC called I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant, and it was weird. This one girl, probably as skinny as you, got pregnant while she was taking the pill, and didn't know, and the only thing that changed was her crazy craving for pickles, and she gave birth just over two months early, and she didn't even get a bump or anything. Weird. The baby was only 3 lbs, but still...weird.

So my classes are all over. Technically they'll all be over tomorrow, but since it's an online class and I've already turned in the assignment, I'm pretty much through. It's nice. No more studying for a whole summer!

I've been listening to Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix on audio (I rented the cds from Hastings and put them on my iPod :P), and I've been getting way to into it. I was making dinner while listening on earphones, and...have you read the books or seen the movie? You know the Dolores Umbridge character? I got so mad at something she did that I growled and yelled "Bitch!" And my mom thought I was talking to her O.o

I went to bed at nine pm the other day. It was odd. I figured I'd start trying to go to bed earlier, but nah. No fun in that.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: I've been seeing that show a lot. It is weird, I don't get how you could not know. I'd love to not have the morning sickness but know I was pregnant,

That's cool.

Lol wow. Yeah, I've seen all the movies. That's funny. I've been talking to myself lately because Hector's been out in the field all week.

WHAT??? You went to bed at 9? Holy hell!

We're coming to Amarillo today, but we'll only be there until Sunday. We're hoping we can use this weekend to see everyone because when we're there next weekend we won't get the chance to see a lot of people since its my grandads 90th bday and my whole moms side of the family will be in town.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: I totally can't think of anything to say.

I'm gonna buy Sims 3 today! If they have it. I didn't think that they might have sold out...hopefully there will be at least one.

Did you ever have a sonogram??

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Me either. We've been out swimming a lot lately, I'm getting a tan...after I got burnt, and my feet are starting to swell, they keep getting all purple, and they turned blue when I was in town one night. It was weird!

Nope, I have to call and make an appointment for it in July, and I have to call sometime this week to make the appointment this week, and I tried calling earlier, but no one ever answered, so I might have to go in and make the appointment instead of calling. They told me that it would take a while if you called and I don't have the patience for that. So I don't know, we'll see what happens.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: That is weird. But feet swelling, that is kind of a ubiquitous preggo symptom.

Okay.

I totally bought the Sims 3 and it's teh awesome. There's already hacks online, except the process of downloading custom content is a lot more complicated. And the Sims totally look retarded. I mean, Sims 2 Sims could be pretty, but Sims 3 Sims look weird.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Yeah, its really freaky looking, and a little annoying.

I got my ultrasound appointment made. Its on umm...July 7 at 9:30, that's the earliest appointment they had!

What do you mean they look weird? I want to get it, but the Sims doesn't work on our desktop, and my laptop broke, so now I'm stuck with nothing.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Wow, your doctor's office sucks ass.

Well, some of the faces just look totally unrealistic, like I've never ever seen anyone who looked like that, and I've seen some freaky faces at Hastings. Plus, for some reason, their eyes are moving like all the time, especially in Create-a-Sim, their eyes just like roll back and forth and they look up a lot, but they never seem to look straight forward. It's still fun.

Speaking of freaky people at work...zomg...Okay, so I'm on my lunch break right now, and as I was leaving, I had to stop by customer service to be signed out, and everybody over there was laughing so hard, so I asked what was going on, and this guy who works in Cafe said he went to the bathroom and in one of the stalls there was an open porn mag with jizz all over it, so he wrapped it up and carried it out to the registers, all jizzy and smelly...People are fucking disgusting! If you're gonna jerk off, whatever dude, do it at home, and don't leave your jizz lying around for people to find!!!!! Blech!!!!

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: There's just that many pregnant ladies that are involved with the military! Its amazing how many army chicks are pregnant.

That's crazy. I want it still, but I want to wait til I get my laptop cized cause we finally took it to Best Buy, and I don't get it back til June 29th, well that's the latest. GAY!

OMG! That's freaking gross! Who would do that? In a Hastings?? Yucky!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Wow. Yeah.

My laptop is dead. I think for my birthday, I'm gonna ask my family for just cash, so I can buy a new harddrive, gut my laptop, and put something like Ubuntu on it instead of fucking Vista, because fucking Vista fucking sucks. :P Oh, and Ubuntu's totally free.

I know!! Dude, we get some freaks there. Last night I was working register, and this girl came and she was so high she couldn't finish a sentence. Oh hey, I totally just made the connection, I'm retarded. The cafe guy who found the jizz mag is Brittany's boyfriend.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Yeah, that's cool. Are you ready for your bday? Are you gonna be off anytime around the 4th of July, we're coming down and I want to see you some while we're there since we didn't really get to hang the last 2 times we were there.

Lol I was wondering if it was him. You know, Brittany doesn't talk to me anymore. When I was there last time, me and Krista went to Hastings to see if you were there, and you weren't, and I saw Brittany, and she said hi to Krista and just completly ignored me, and we were talking just before I got to Amarillo. Ever since then she stopped talking to me. I'm like losing all of my friends but you and Krista =(

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: My birthday was boring actually. No fun. Still can't drink :P I'll be in town the weekend of July 4th, but I'll probably be working :( Closing, though, so we could do lunch.

Wow, so she just like stopped talking to you for no reason? That's mean. I wonder why.

You at least have one more friend than me, Lady. I'm friendly with people at work, but that's it.

Oh God, do you remember me telling you about a girl named Casey from Hastings? She's the lesbian who did ecstasy and was friends with Creepy Wheel of Fortune Guy? Anyway, she went off to California with Ben Wilting's ex-girlfriend, but now she's back working in the Cafe, and it pisses me off. I'm tempted to "anonymously" report her past drug habit in the hope that she'll get sacked. Or, I could have a heart and give her a chance...tough decision.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG

I found a used condom under one of the chairs at work today. Not just any chair, one of the chairs in the one place in Books that has a camera.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Well, I'll be here all week! As you recently found out since I had to come find you!

Yeah, then randomly Firday she called me and asked when I was next gonna be in town and I told her I already was, so she asked me to go hang out with her for a little bit. It was weird, and awkward... She was doing nothing but gossiping too, it was a little annoying.

Yeah, but I only have you and Krista. Its still a little boring coming home when I can't hang out with either of you cause you're both busy.

Wow, amazing. I don't think you ever said anything about the ecstasy though, or the Creepy Wheel of Fortune Guy.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Hey, did you get my text about ummm...me changing my number?

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Yeah, I got the text, but I was about to clock in, so I couldn't answer, and then I forgot. But I did change the number in my speed dial.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: I noticed. I had an ultrasound this morning, and we got a picture of her with one of her feet above her head. I'm getting ready to put it up here

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Aww, cute.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: I know, huh? I'm so ready its not even funny!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Are you gonna do natural childbirth or Cesarean?

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: They only do Cesarean if I'm going in too early or if there are complications witht he birth. Which is ok with me, I kinda would rather do natural. Getting cut open freaks me out.

Hmm...I was gonna tell you something and I forgot...

Dude, since I've been pregnant my stupid moments have like...gone up majorly. Its horrible. Absentmindedness during pregnancy sucks when you were already absentminded.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Dude, if you're having more stupid moments, you need to post them.

Talk about absentminded...yesterday (which was Thursday, because today is Friday), I stayed up way past dawn, and slept till 4:30, and I was just going to hang out for a while and then finish my first assignments (school, yuck). I was positive all day that it was Wednesday, and the next day would be Thursday, when I'd go back to work. Then, at 6:40, someone from work called and told me that I was supposed to be in at 5 to work, and I freaked out, thinking that I had written down my schedule wrong. So I took a super fast shower, and I was getting ready to do my make up, when I noticed my cell phone on my jewelry box, so I checked it, and to my immense surprise, it said Thu 8/27...Thursday! I couldn't believe it was Thursday. I went to work, and it took me forever to realize what happened. I must have woken up on Tuesday thinking it was Monday, for some reason. I felt so retarded. But I didn't get in trouble! I think my coworkers sometimes think I'm not all there mentally, so they probably weren't surprised. Oi.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Haha that happens to me all the time. If it weren't for my doctor appointments and making sure I keep up with them, I would never be able to remember what day it was. I'll start putting up more of my stupid moments if I remember them. I remember one with a cell phone, if I didn't tell you that one, you can read it cause I'm putting it up now.

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Cool, put up more. I always hear stuff at work and think, "lol That needs to be on Stupid Moments" (yes I actually think 'lol'), but then I always forget by the time I get home.

Dude, Hinder came into the store today for a signing, and srsly, people are retauded around rock stars. It was ridiculous. For like two hours there was a gigantic crowd of smiling, disproportionately excited people waiting to "meet" Hinder, and we sold out of the new CD, so we had associates driving all over town trying to find more. It was crazy. I didn't even get to see them, but I'm not exactly disappointed. For one, I didn't even know they were coming. I got to work, and I was like, wtf are all these people doing here?? For two, I, unlike that crowd of no-lifes, don't idolize celebrities.

LMFAO Did you know that there are voodoo practitioners in Amarillo?? One worked at BSA, where my mom works. She was talking to her friend in public about how she was going to curse this other woman who works at BSA. She was saying she was going to do all this crazy shit to that lady, and this random woman overheard her and called the BSA office to warn the lady. So BSA fired the voodoo chick, and the lady the voodoo chick wanted to "curse" went to the cops, and they weren't really taking her that seriously, until, while she was explaining everything at the station, the voodoo chick showed up and started screaming and cursing the lady...while surrounded by farking cops. Needless to say (but I'm going to say it so I don't know why I even said needless to say), the cops were like, "Oh...this is serious."

ZOMG. This is a crazy town.

So...how's Peanut? Er, Lily? Are you huge?

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Its ok, I do the same thing whenever I'm out.

Wow, that's crazy. I don't really like Hinder as much as I used to. There are always celebs here cause of Ft Hood, and they only come on Ft Hood. Disturbed comes like, at least once a year and does a concert on Ft Hood then goes to the County Center and does a concert there. It's crazy.

I didn't know that, that's insane. Lol Amarillo is so weird. I haven't missed it. I'm actually dreading moving back, mostly cause of Hector's mom though. Did I tell you my dad quit his job?? He told the doctors they were dumbasses and left! He's been out for weeks, and my mom's just now getting onto him about getting another job.

Dude, I can't even define the amount of drama I've had over here in the past like...week. Our car got keyed by this...ok, hold on, I have to start this story back a couple months ago.

We met this couple, Adrian and Lisbeth, in January and started hanging out with them for a while. At one point, Adrian told Hector that he keyed this girls car because he didn't like her. This girl's name is Elizabeth, and was "best friends" with Lisbeth. Lisbeth, all she did when me and her would hang out was talk about how much she hated Elizabeth. After a while, we stopped hanging out with them and I started hanging out with Elizabeth because Lisbeth introduced us at one point. Then during the summer we all started hanging out.

Ok, now to the recent. Me and Elizabeth have gotten really close, mostly because I'm the god-mother of her son. And me being me, I told Elizabeth the stuff that Lisbeth said about her to me when we were still friends. She never said anything to Lisbeth about it, but it changed her opinion of her cause LIsbeth was just acting like her friend. They ended up getting into a fight over other stuff and Lisbeth told Elizabeth what she really thought of her. So!!!! Because I was closer friends with Elizabeth, we hung out with her and her husband more often than we did with Lizbeth and Adrian. Adrian got hella jealous for some reason and went and keyed our car. We didn't need to watch him do it, cause no one we know here that like, Hector works with and no one but Adrian is that fucking immature, so on Myspace and Facebook we put that we got our car (fyi, brand new 09 car) keyed and we knew who did it. We never told anyone but the police who we thought did it, and out of nowhere Adrian started being like "Why do you think its me??" Hector was like, "Wow, guilt trip much!" Then, on Facebook I had a conversation with Elizabeth how I was ready for this drama to be over cause I don't need it while I'm pregnant. She agreed, and said "At least they're leaving soon," which I also agreed with. Adrian and Lisbeth saw it, and came over here, knocked on the door, and when Hector answered it Adrian said "Get the fuck out here!" And we had guests over, and Hector got hella pissed. (Adrian is getting stationed in Korea and is leaving in like...less than 2 weeks.) Adrian was like, "We were so hurt that Rachel would say all that stuff about us," and lots of other stuff like that, and it was just so fucking retarded! I don't remember most of the conversation because I didn't go outside, but later that night Lisbeth sent me a message on Facebook apologizing for everything and I said, "I don't care. I'm pregnant, I don't need this. The way you guys acted tonight was retarded," all this other stuff to that affect. So she said, "You're right, you don't. You're going to have a beautiful baby girl and we won't give you guys anymore drama." I told Hector and Elizabeth and they were both like, "Wow, that apology is a little late." If you were here you it would be easier, but really, that's the long story short...

There is more drama here than I had in Amarillo, its effin rediculous! I'm so hoping its over though, cause I will kill someone. I have definetly hit that hardcore hormonal stage lol

She's good. She moves like, 24/7. You know, I'm really not that big. Not as big as most women. The doc said your uterus each week should be as big as how many weeks you are. So at 29 weeks mine was 29 inches, so that's really good. I'm so ready for her to be here though. More cause I'm tired of the pain. I just hit the point where my hips are starting to hurt a lot. My back hasn't been that sore, just kind of like...tired, if that makes sense. AND!!! My feet haven't really swelled up, they do if I walk a lot though. My hands got it pretty bad, so I had to take my ring off and get a new one. Umm...at the last ultrasound in August she was 1lb 11oz, and according to my book she should be around 3lbs now. On October 4th, I will have exactly 2 months left!!! I'm getting really anxious!!!

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Dude, you have to go see Paranormal Activity! Its pretty effin creepy! You know shit scares the hell out of me regardless, but that movie was EFFIN SCARY!!!

I feel like I was going to say something else but I can't remember...

I am definetly getting over forgetful and so ready to not be pregnant anymore! The pain is driving me nuts!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Dude, that shit with Adrian and Lisbeth is fucking ridiculous. Shouldn't the military knock that kind of immature shit out of guys like that? I was talking to my mom, and I mentioned the crazy drama you're having down there, and she said she wasn't all that surprised. Her first husband was in the military, and she said she learned then that a lot of immature guys join up and that some bases are just like Douche-central. Of course, my mom would never have said Douche-central. I embellished there a little bit.

Well, December 4 is coming closer and closer. Who knows, though, once you hit the constant crying and pooping stage, you might miss the quiet of being pregnant.

I can't believe your dad quit his job. It just seems so rash. I know the dude's got a temper, but jeez. I think a lot of hospitals and health care institutions in Ama are going through some crazy shit right now. I know my mom's work is bad. Her boss is like this amoral asswipe. He embezzled money from a charity fund, and he's forcing the nurses to work on call at night for two fucking dollars an hour. It's crazy.

I did see Paranormal Activity. My mom knew I wanted to go, and out of the nowhere she said she'd go with me and buy the tickets, so we went. I got really sick halfway through though. I don't know what happened, I just got nauseous and had to leave the theater, but as soon as I got past the stairs and into that quiet, dark hall, I felt so much better. I had been reading Seeking Spirits by Jason Hawes and Grant Wilson (the guys who started TAPS, from SyFy's Ghost Hunters) before we went to see it, and the last story I read had actually been about this case where there was a demonic entity in this couple's house, and in the middle of the night the husband woke up and started screaming and trying to hit Jason and Grant, and then he just went limp and couldn't remember even getting out of bed. They did a spiritual blessing of the house to get rid of the thing, and the very next morning across the street from that couple, a woman went crazy and shot her husband to death.

Did y'all do anything special for Halloween? I had to work, 4-midnight. I dressed up in this long black dress and a black floppy hat. I had crazy makeup, dark purple eyeshadow, glitter and shimmer, dark red lips. I told everyone I was "Sonora Wellington, black widow." It was fun. I got asked out by an old guy, though...

I had a stupid moment yesterday. I wore these silver/gold heels to work, but halfway through the night I changed into sneakers. When I was leaving for my break, I set my heels on the counter as I signed out and then I put them in my purse. On my way back to work, I looked all through my car for my shoes, because I thought I'd put them on the car seat. Then I figured I left them on the counter, and I thought how embarrassing. So I ran in and asked the team lead if I'd left my shoes, and she said no, and I was so confused, so I opened my purse and was like, "Oh, no, there they are." The team lead laughed so hard...

Sorry it's been so long since I replied. I think I typed a whole reply once before and then for some reason decided not to send it, and then I forgot. You're not the only one being forgetful.

Two people from HC work with me now. Becca G. works in the cafe, and Anthony (the guy who dated Monisa) works up front. It's weird. Becca's like a slut now. She plays Christian music all the time, but she comes to work covered in hickeys.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: Yeah, you'd think they would. There are lots of immature pricks in the military, and dude, a lot of them are high ranking people. It's so retarded. I hate knowing that these are the people that get sent overseas to protect us!

Oh, I'm sure at some point I'll miss it, but I won't miss the pain of it. I was having some hardcore contractions on Friday. It was horrible! On top of that, the contractions were making my muscles sore, so everytime she moved it effin hurt! It was very uncomfortable and I am more than ready for December 4 to get here. Even though I'm sure she won't actulaly get here on that day, just pray she doesn't come December 11. That's Hector's mom's b-day, and I don't want them to have the same b-day. I WILL have a heart-attack!

Holy shit! The thing with my dad wasn't anywhere near that bad! It was just retardedness with meds. And you know my dad, when he thinks he's right no one else can tell him otherwise. He still hasn't found a job either. He's only recently gone looking for jobs and had 2 interviews, I think. I know he went to one and my mom said he was having another one I just don't know when it was, or is.

Holy crap. That's crazy. So you never saw the end? Because the ending is what was crazy! I couldn't sleep for a while lol. Then Hector went to the field and I started sleeping with the tv on. I actually haven't watched a scary movie since unless I've seen it multiple times and I know it won't scare me. EXCEPT! I did watch Drag Me to Hell, and I think that's the first scary movie I've ever seen for the first time that didn't scare me at all.

Oh dude! Did you go see Saw 6? I wanted to, but Hector didn't want to. So now we're waiting for it to come out on DVD, like we do with just about everything else!

Not really. A girl I know here has a 4 year old and she brought him over so we got some candy for him, but other than that we just chilled at home and watched movies. I don't feel like doing much these days or else we probably would have gone to some party or something. Then again, I don't know. Hector's not big on being a part of stuff with the people he works with. He's one of the few guys that hasn't let the military change him, for the worst at least. Wow...how old was he?

Haha wow. I haven't had many stupid moments lately. Mostly cause I've been doing nothing but sleeping and/or watching movies.

Its ok. I'm still pretty forgetful. Whenever I go somewhere, I stand at the door for like 5-10 mins making sure I have everything and I'm not forgetting something. But its ok, I haven't been getting on that much lately cause I'm trying to rest up so much. They don't like when they say you do most of your resting in the last month. My friend Elizabeth said she spent her last month mostly in bed, and I didn't think I would, but so far...I have lol.

I knew about Becca because of Brittany, and I heard about Anthony...I forgot from who. (Him and Monisa are still together.) Oh I know, she dated Hector before me and him dated. I know all about her sluttyness! You know, have you heard her say anything about having a bf or something? Because her Facebook says she's into girls, but Kolin, Brit's bf, says that she has one. So I'm like, so confused. I don't even know why I care...

Hmm...I was gonna say something else and I completely forgot what... Oh, this isn't what it was but I'm gonna tell you this anways! We are coming down sometime between Dec 20 and the 24. It kind of depends on when she's born because you have to come back after 2 weeks, so if she comes late it will be a little later, and if not we'll get there earlier. So it all depends on her. But Hector took his leave from Dec 20-Jan 25th, and I think we'll be there for sure 2 weeks. I told Hector I wanted to be there till at least right after New Years, so after that I don't really know what we're gonna do.

I'm still having issues with his mom. She doesn't have my new number yet, so she keeps calling Hector asking if she can talk to me. She wrote Hector this long ass letter about how she can't believe I won't talk to her and its because I don't like her and all this other stuff, and then at the end of it was like "You chose the perfect girl to have my grandchildren." I was like...wtf... Then when all that stuff happened on Thursday with the shootings, her and Gino, Hector's dad, actually went to my parents house so they could get ahold of me and ask what was going on because the phone lines were soo freaking jammed and they couldn't get ahold of Hector. Even though he texted them and said he was ok. Apparently, to Hector's mom, that meant he wasn't. I swear, freaking retarded!

[there's a bluebird in my heart]: Dude, that is kind of scary, knowing high ranking people are such asshats.

That would suck if they had the same b-day, because from all you've told me that woman is a complete bitch.

I saw your dad at Hastings the other day, and JP was there. Dude! I just remembered, I had a dream last night about you and your family. We were still at HC, and I was visiting you at your house, though it was totally different from your actual house, and JP was acting like a maniac. Anyway, I didn't say hi to them.

I finally went back in and saw the end, and I definately wasn't expecting it. I was more freaked out by the Seeking Spirits story than the movie, but that's because I knew the movie was a total fake but the book was a real account. I don't want to see Drag Me to Hell, and I'm not surprised you didn't get scared. It seemed so stupid.

I'm not going to see Saw 6 at all. Lol seesaw. I hated Saw 5, plus I got this major headache while we were watching it that hurt so bad I thought I was going to pass out. I sort of think they're just milking the franchise now, instead of coming out with really good material. Nothing will ever beat the creep factor of Saw, the first time I saw it. They should stop trying and let it be.

At least Hector isn't being negatively affected by them, that's good. Dude, old. Seriously. Like my dad's age. I like guys and all, but if they're old enough to be a grandfather, that's too old.

Well if you need to rest you totally should, instead of overexerting yourself. I see women at work who are about to pop, and they're out till like midnight just walking around.

Becca dated Hector? Bad taste, Hector. I heard third-hand about the hickey incident, and appearantly she was bragging to this chick in cafe that it was a guy and how they'd gotten all crazy. Probably the claim to lesbianism is just her trying to get more guys, because guys all think lesbians are hot. I think it has to do with them wanting to feel more manlier if they can sway her back to hetero-ness. The term 'slut' explains it all to me.

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Tell me when you're in town so I can see you and Lily.

She does sound crazy. She can't just go back on all the bad shit she said about you. I would demand an apology. Or not demand, but quietly insist over and over until she got the gorram point.

[Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ]: I know, right?

Oh she is, and I will have a heart attack if they do. Ok, maybe not a heart attack, but I will be pissed as hell. Like, seriously. I'd hold her in till it was like...12:01 am on the 12th if I had to, there is no way I'm letting her out on the 11th.

Lol I wouldn't have said hi to them either. Dude! I told you about how J.P. went to a military acadamy thing during the summer right? Well, if I didn't, I just did. It was a month long, and when he came back, he changed. He wasn't all mean and bitchy to everyone. Now, he's worse than before he left. He pissed my mom off so bad that she actually left Amarillo and came up here.

Yeah, I didn't know anything about the movie until they started previewing that it was "the scariest movie out" or whatever. Dude, it was so stupid! Like, omg! Its worse than all the Jason's and Michaels! Everyone kept telling me and Hector that it was so good and scary so we were like, ok, we'll watch it. Psh, I don't know what people think is a good movie these days.

Yeah, that's why Hector didn't want to see it. I think I only wanted to see it because I watched the tv show "Scream Queens" and it was looking for the...lead actress in it. It took me a while to think of lead actress. I am definitely losing brain cells from being prego.

I know, thank God! I'd have killed him by now if it had. Holy crap. Old guys, ok, old military guys that are single here, some aren't even single, LOVE to hit on prego women. Doesn't matter if the women are married or not. I've gotten hit on so many times. Its gross. And if I'm not getting hit on, people stare me down like I have some kind of disease or something. You'd seriously think that with how many pregnant women are in Killeen and Ft Hood that it wouldn't be a big deal, but apparently it i.

Yeah, I could do that, but I'd rather not. It's exhausting carrying around someone else 24/7. I still go out and stuff during the day, but once its night time, or late, I'm in bed. Walking around too much is what makes my feet swell.

I know. They dated for like a month. Maybe not even a month. Remember when he dated Brittany for like...2 weeks? He dated Becca right after that. Lol yeah, I guess that about sums it up. She's so gross.

Holy shit! I don't even know what to say to that...that's horrible. I hate men that are like that.

I will. I'll probably let you know on here when I'll be in town because once she's born we'll have a better knowing of what we'll be doing. Now that's just all we're waiting on. I swear, having to wait 9 months is beyond torture.

I've thought about it, but my mom and sis keep telling me to just let it go and move on. Honestly, that's probably what I should do because no matter what, she's going to keep saying stuff about me. She's just going to be nice to my face because she doesn't want to lose her only grandkid, you know? I told Hector I have no problem with being a bitch and never letting her see Lily if she was going to keep this up. She's been doing it since we got married and I've blown it off, but you can't sit there and talk shit about a pregnant woman. We are too bitchy, and I know that if her or Joe says anything to me while we're home I'm gonna end up saying something and chances are it won't be nice. Joe's gotten real up in my face too, but again, says everything to Hector instead of me. I was taking bc before I got pregnant, and I wasn't thinking when me and Hector were talking about in front of his family because they're so freaking against it. So Joe bitched at Hector at how I was on bc and I was "killing babies." I swear...during Christmas and New Years, someone will get bitch-slapped because I will not be putting up with any shit from his family, or mine.